Hid His Heart 02

          - Hid His Heart 02 -
              ( kay jay 06 )

The first night that he saw her,
   Jonah felt a strange desire . . .
. . . and his fate was sealed.
She could see him coming,
   like all the ones before . . .
. . . he was no big deal.
Karie had a past she would,
   not let herself live down . . .
. . . she was a queen in pain.
She wore all her mistakes,
   just like a thorny crown . . .
. . . Jonah should'a run, should'a run -

Should'a Hid His Heart, Should'a Held It Tight
Said His Prayers, 'Cause There Was Trouble In Sight
When His Common Sense Battled With His Desire
Should'a Hid His Heart, Instead Of Playing With Fire

The night was over,
   but the story doesn't end . . .
. . . she took his heart.
She took him by surprise,
   let him walk on the moon . . .
. . . he could see the trouble start.
The walls he built to protect him,
   started to crumble and collapse . . .
. . . at his feet.
But Jonah wasn't thinking,
   and his spirit felt so free . . .
. . . Jonah should'a run, should'a run -

Should'a Hid His Heart, Should'a Held It Tight
Said His Prayers, 'Cause There Was Trouble In Sight
When His Common Sense Battled With His Desire
Should'a Hid His Heart, 'Cause He's Playing With Fire

Jonah's holdin' Karie,
   at the airport boarding gate . . .
. . . as time stood still.
She looked him in the eye,
   said you know just where I stand . . .
. . . he could feel a chill
The pain lanced out like thunder,
   as he walked away in tears . . .
. . . feeling like the fool.
When his heart felt like it was dying,
 . . .  he could finally understand -

He Should'a Hid His Heart, Should'a Held It Tight
Said His Prayers, 'Cause There Was Trouble In Sight
When His Common Sense Battled With His Desire
Should'a Hid His Heart, Instead Of Playing With Fire


2012.12.29 @ 0530


2012.12.27 0330-0530
2012.12.28 0100-0300
2012.12.29 0300-0530

All Too Clear

                       - All Too Clear -

                         ( kay jay 05 )

 

That night -

It was an accident that we

Were even there we’d almost begged off

You were there 

Breakfast –

We didn’t feel hungry and

The Belgian Waffles not our favorite place

But you were there

It’s Like Our Knees Went Weak And Dragonflies

Were Dancing, Taking All Our Air

From That Very Moment It Was All Too Clear 

Right there -

In the middle of a conversation

Wasn't anything special you said

We were in

 Right then -

We didn't even have time to think

We loved you, and all of a sudden

We were all in

It’s Like Our Knees Went Weak And Dragonflies

Were Dancing, Taking All Our Air

From That Very Moment It Was All Too Clear 

That day -

We planned where “we” were going

But not how the night would end

And when “we” barely followed our plan

We didn’t even care

That night -

We didn't know if something was brewing

With the prettiest woman on the mountain

And with more shopping and then Denny’s

We didn't know how much we’d care 

It’s Like Our Knees Went Weak And Dragonflies

Were Dancing, Taking All Our Air

From That Very Moment It Was All Too Clear

That touch -

When you reached out for our hand

We were overcome with feelings

We never thought to feel again

In a million years we didn't think that we'd be there

 That glance -

Your hard shell and hidden vulnerability

We were scared of you, and what we felt

As we were walking on the moon

And in a million years we never thought we'd be there

It’s Like Our Knees Went Weak And Dragonflies

Were Dancing, Taking All Our Air

From That Very Moment It Was All Too Clear

 2012.12.27  @ 0900

Shout

                    - Shout -

 

we've been silent for far too long

now we're telling everyone what's going on

it's time to shout it's time to scream

it's time to wake up from this bad dream

we're gonna shout the devil to his knees

shout till the angels fold their wings

shout till we feel it deep in our veins

shout till everyone knows we’re insane

we're gonna shout now

we wanna wake up

 

we've been broken we've been bruised

we've been lied to we've been used

it's time for some dignity it's time for some pride

it's time to let out what's exploding inside

we're gonna shout the devil to his knees

shout till the angels fold their wings

shout till we feel it deep in our veins

shout till everyone knows we’re insane

we're gonna shout now

we wanna wake up

 

 

2012.12.27 @ 0330

Struggling

 

 

                 - Struggling -

 

Looking back we were struggling

All the people, places we've left behind
What others have we were struggling at
Second chances are seem hardest to find

 

What if the dreams we had weren't dead

Only misplace 'cause we fought and lost again 

We're tired of always stumbling through it 

 

Another day, another sun is gone

Everything around us slowly wears us down

So we pleasantly distract our self

Time is passing and we forget to look around 

 

What if the dreams we had weren't dead

Only misplace 'cause we fought and lost again 

We're tired of always stumbling through it 

 

That's not the way life should be we should

Pay attention 'cause pain goes away

And we shouldn't be bothered

By the things we can't control 

 

What if the dreams we had weren't dead

Only misplace 'cause we fought and lost again 

We're tired of always stumbling through it  

 

This is how we've cleared our mind

Now is time to take the blindfold off to find

What we've had is an image of life

Now awake we find everything will be fine 

What if the dreams we had weren't dead

Only misplace 'cause we fought and lost again 

We're tired of always stumbling through it

 

 

2012.12.26 @ 0645

Dead End Street & You'll Find Us

- Dead End Street - 9-1-1 but the police won't come to our dead end street all the dreams in their best suits are dying in the heat we get no reaction so we built up walls we have no attraction for anyone at all all the dreams flown away running from the sun here in the rubble the mourning always comes we get no reaction except locking doors we have no attraction for anyone at all the day’s over another bust we fake the happy, look at us it's definitely a dead end street we get no reaction as we’re crashing down we have no attraction for anyone at all we can see us in this plastic town crumbling to dust we can see us stuck inside of this cage of rust we'll cry like a baby we as we burn we’ll cry in silence we cry like the earl of dead end street 2012.12.23 @ 0415	- You'll Find Us - ( kay jay 04 ) “we” lived so long in silence and in silence we became history and slowly in loves total absence all our greatest fears became reality now we're not cursing anyone the fine line between victim & volunteer so if you want to know where we are now then just breathe in . . . . . . and let it out When You’re At The End Of Your Rope You’ll Find Us - Safeguarding Your Last Ray Of Hope You’ll Find Us - Open Your Heart And Clear Your Eyes You’ll Find Us - We'll Show You How Much You're Worth You’ll Find Us - As Close To Heaven On Earth well we’ve laid down the burden the one that made us think that we had something to prove in you we found the power to climb the mountain that we should have never have tried to move so if you want to know where are now just breathe in . . . . . . then let it out When You’re At The End Of Your Rope You’ll Find Us - Safeguarding Your Last Ray Of Hope You’ll Find Us - Open Your Heart And Clear Your Eyes You’ll Find Us - We'll Show You How Much You're Worth You’ll Find Us - As Close To Heaven On Earth you always said, it’s what I’m here for but when it comes credit we said you deserved so much more. Don't you know you’re golden Don't you know you’re delight if you feel your past has painted you broken You can wash it all away tonight just breathe in . . . . . . then let it out When You’re At The End Of Your Rope You’ll Find Us - Safeguarding Your Last Ray Of Hope You’ll Find Us - Open Your Heart And Clear Your Eyes You’ll Find Us - We'll Show You How Much You're Worth You’ll Find Us - As Close To Heaven On Earth 2012.12.23 @ 0505
neither of these went in their intended direction . . .

Nothing Worth Having... Comes Easy

 Nothing Worth Having . . .
       . . . Comes Easy)
           (kay jay 03) 

we know that you're scared,
    despite your disguise.
Your world is on fire,
    we can see it in your eyes.
Past demons are hungry,
    and they feast on your fear.
They're howling and screaming,
    we can feel they are near.
We will stay right here . . .

For You We Can Wait . . .
That Won't Change.
We Won't Fade Away . . .
From The Dark Or The Strange.
Feel The Joy’s And The Pains . . .
‘Cos Nothing Worth Having Comes Easy.

It may seem to hard,
    now your demons have found you.
Don't pay any attention,
    to the lies they will tell,
Don't get us wrong angel,
    we know it's severe.
Just give us a smile,
    as we whisper in your ear
We will stay right here . . .

For You We Can Wait . . .
That Won't Change.
We Won't Fade Away . . .
From The Dark Or The Strange.
Feel The Joy’s And The Pains . . .
‘Cos Nothing Worth Having Comes Easy.

You have found what you,
    didn’t know you were looking for.
There will be no judgments,
    only an open heart so strong.
This choice is just yours,
    and choosing “us” won’t be wrong.
We’ve been right here . . .

we can wait . . .
we will stay right here . . .

For You We Can Wait . . .
That Won't Change.
We Won't Fade Away . . .
From The Dark Or The Strange.
Feel The Joy’s And The Pains . . .
‘Cos Nothing Worth Having Comes Easy.


2012.12.21 @ 0545

In Our

 

 

 

 

           - In Our -

       ( kay jay 02 )

 

we run away from love,

    ‘cos you made us feel.

everything falls apart,

    in “our” tragedy.

we are far away but not gone,

    we just want to be there.

both “our” past’s form apart,

    in our symphony.

 

we can feel you in our heart . . .

you are burned into our soul . . .

we don't want you to pretend . . .

but we don't want to be alone.

 

we feel like we’re torn apart,

    yet we cannot bleed.

caught up in the web you made,

    this just can't be real.

we are far away but not gone,

    we just wish to be near.

both “our” past’s form a part,

    in this tragedy.

 

we can feel you in our heart . . .

you are burned into our soul . . .

we don't want you to pretend . . .

but we don't want to be alone.

 

we don't want to be alone.

every day . . .

we live with this.

inside we’ve changed.

every day . . .

we'll deal with this,

alone.

 

we can feel you in our heart . . .
you are burned into our soul . . .
we don't want you to pretend . . .
but we don't want to be alone.

 

2012.12.20 @ 0945

 

[really hate it when one of these P.O.S's]

[wakes us up, and won't let us go back down]

Half As Good

 

 

 

                - Half As Good -

 

we made a soldiers decision to fly away,
loaded gun, painted face, escaped misery.
we watch the sky light up, and the ground explode.
through our thermal sights, we can see them breathe,
watched them fall to the ground, hear somebody scream.
yet the saddest thing is our angel fly's away.
we have no home tonight, we hope to be back all right.
no one could ever love you, half as good as us.

 

got another badge for our scars, just the other day.
wore it proud for the sake of insanity.
flames burn bright, in dreams of the crossroads.
hunting at night, like a haunting page from our history,
watching tracers fly, and hear the incoming scream.
but the saddest thing is our angel fly's away.
we have no home tonight, we'll just go find another fight.
no one could ever love you, half as good as us.

you can be strong at night, love makes you sad its all right,
we wish you could love us, half as much as we do you.

 

 

2012.12.20 @ 0530
 

Someone Else's Lines

- Someone Else's Lines -

       (kay jay 01)

Before we let you go,
     give us just one more line,

          to show you just how we feel.
You went beyond the call,
     if it takes our whole damned life,
          we’ll return it all to you.

Loves kinda like the waves,

  rolling and rushing to a,

      senseless crashing on a shore.

Love gets blown by a wind,

  that carries the clouds to hide,

      a wish on a falling star.

No Matter How Many Lines We Write.

Or How Badly We Try To Rhyme.

We Can Sum It Up Best With A

David Gahan Line . . .

. . .”all we ever wanted, all we ever needed . . .”

We tried to let you go,

   we wish we could turn back time,

       and show you just how we feel.
We just needed you to know,

   if it takes our whole damned life,
        we’ll make you feel this too.

Before you let us go,

   we’ll take just one more try

      to tell you just how we feel.
The worst kind of pain,

   is someone else holding you,

       washing away all your fears.

No Matter How Many Lines We Write

Or How Badly We Try To Rhyme.

We Can Sum It Up Best With A

Robert Smith Line . . .

. . .”whenever we’re alone with you. . .”


2012.12.19 @ 0425

. . . Too Far Away

 

 

 

 

 

                   . . . Too Far Away

 

 

as we slip away into the darkness our heart falls.

If the godz created love, why didn't they make enough for everyone.

we appreciate the solitude our dead dreams have finally found.

when the devil makes us cry, we don't change our mind.

 

It's Our Own Only Pain, That Heavens Too Far Away.

 

all the little scars add up and mark our soul.

do angels hold up signs, with directions for everyone.

Is there someone who will have and hold onto us, or is matsu tenshi all there is.

when  the stars refuse to shine, we don't change our mind.

 

It's Our Own Only Pain, That Heavens Too Far Away.

 

 

2012.12.18 @ 0510

We Are

                - We Are -

we think we're through pretending
or knocking at a door
that we've been through before
congratulations - you turned out our light
now it's you against the night

we think we're never coming after - after all
now we've become the cat
who always lets you know this & that . . .
we are we are - stronger than the wind
we are we are - the sweetest sin
we are we are - stronger without you
we are

for all the words that go unspoken
silence isn't really gold
and the story's never get told
investigation - at last we've found our light
and we'll shine

we thought we'd never recover after - after all
so now we're like the cat
who always tells you this  & that . . .
we are we are - stronger than the wind
we are we are - the sweetest sin
we are we are - stronger without you
we are

we think we're way outside illusion
broken down the door
that locked us out before
congratulations - now that you've seen our light
you are alone against the night

we think we're finally healing after - after all
and now that we've become the cat
we'll always let you know this & that . . .
we are we are - stronger than the wind
we are we are - the sweetest sin
we are we are - stronger without you
we are

we are we are - brighter than the sun
we are we are - everyone
we are we are - better without you
we are

we are we are - stronger than before
we are we are - more
we are we are - ready to go on
we are


2012.12.17 @ 0030

Nice Night

                     - Nice Night -

we are a thousand miles from no where

    but still too close to 'home'.
we're with a hundred people

    and yet are all alone.

she was never in the circle
    or the round would be a square.
and the more that we want her,
    the less she seems to care.

Nice Night For A Crucifixion -
Too Late To Run Or Hide -
It's Never Who It's Only Why . . .
Love Is Just A Lie.

it's when we're going somewhere
   that the other shoe does fall.
we look for stairs to heaven
   then answer dark rainbows call.

we were always dedicated
    it was our unwritten law.

then got burned with too much fire
    'cos our heart is made of straw.

Nice Night For An Execution -

No Hope, Just Say Goodbye -

It Will Always Be And We Know Why . . .
'Cos Love Is Just A Lie.

when we're looking for tomorrow
    then we forget about today.
then the past will be our future
    and it's there we'll always stay.

what about the pictures

    that fake smile from facebook.
the ultimate redemption

    their eyes have hells look.

Nice Night For Persecution -

Never More, Not Worth The Try -

'Cos Life Has Proved Again -

True Love Is Just A Lie.

2012.12.16 @ 1030

Here's What

 

 

        - Here's What -

 

Lately when our demons,

    drag the night across our eyes.
We just can't seem to fight it anymore.
Yield unto temptation,

    and give up on the world.
But it seems that we've sung that song before.

 

And The Voices Begin To Sing - No Home.

Here's What Lies Do -
All Things Turn To Black.

 

We have seen some pain,

    as we're acquainted with the night.

But this is way beyond what eyes can see.
Wicked is as wicked does,

    and if we lose our heart.
This is the way that hell is gonna be.

 

And The Voices Begin To Sing - No Home.

Here's What Love Does -
Dies And Fades To Black.
 

Now before our demons,

    roll the night across our eyes.
We tremble as we wait for dreams to die.

Yield our self to the dark rainbow,

    and surrender to the world.
All we can do is let the beast come in.

 

And The Voices Begin To Sing - No Home.

Here's What Dreams Do -

Die And Fade To Black.

 

have we fallen too far to rise
been burning too long in the fire
when it all falls down -

time to fade to black . . .


2012.12.16 @ 0500 

Safer Here In The Dark

 

 

 

- Safer Here In The Dark -

 

we are all right,

    we are crossing over,
         just shot out the sun.
for another night,

    black as our soul,
         so no one saw us run.

Running With Monsters In Shadows -
'Cos The Monsters Always Know -

We're Safer Here In The Dark.

 

oh, she was right,

    we are less than handsome,
        but we've always known.

before we saw her light,

    accepted the dark rainbow,

        decided to be ok with alone.
Clutching The Monsters In Shadows -
The Monsters Always Know -
We're Safer Here In The Dark.

We'll be all right,

    we're finally crossing over,
        we can disappear.

gone . . .
 

Living With Monsters In Shadows -
'Cos The Monsters Have Always Known -
It's Better In The Dark -
Safer Here In The Dark -
we just shot the sun

2012.12.16 @ 0245

Do You Remember

        - Do You Remember -

When will we see you again?

"We" left without a real goodbye, 

    three simple words where said.

No final kiss to seal anything,

    we had no idea what state "we" are in.

We know we have a shattered heart . . .

And a bitterness . . .

And a lonesome eye . . .

And a heaviness in our head . . .

But Do You Remember . . . 

What It Was To Be In Love?

Do You Remember . . .

What It Felt Like, To Be Loved?

Angel, Please Remember,

And Think Of Us.

When was the last time,

    you thought of us?

Or have you completely erased us,

    from your memory?

We often think about,

    having a home.

The more we think, 

    the less we know.

But We Have A Scarred Up Heart . . .

And A Bitterness . . .

Silver Eyes . . .

And A Heaviness In Our Head . . .

But Do You Remember . . . 

What It Was To Be In Love?

Do You Remember . . .

What It Felt Like, To Be Loved?

Angel, Please Remember,

And Think Of Us.

We gave you the space,

    so you could breathe.

We kept our distance,

    so you would be free

And hope that you find,

    the missing piece.

To bring you back to "us".

But We Have A Shattered Heart . . .

And A Weariness . . .

Silver Eyes . . .

And A Heaviness In Our Head . . .

But Do You Remember . . . 

What It Was To Be In Love?

Do You Remember . . .

What It Felt Like, To Be Loved?

Angel, Please Remember,

And Think Of Us.

When will we see you again? 

2012.12.13 @ 0330

Forgive Us Love

    - Forgive Us Love -

So much to say,

    and so little time.

We had an empty mouth,

    the words trapped in our mind.

But you wore the face,

    the one where you smile.

Thoughts of you lighten our heart

    when we would rather cry.

Forgive us love -

We felt so tired . . .

But you brought us,

    around to feeling again.

We try to understand how,

    you got so close and changed our mind

We've seen the look in your eyes,

    opposite the words you say. . .

It's driven away the doubts in our self.

Simply, it's time

This love has welled up,

    and somehow thrived.

And if we're able to stay alive

We'll still choke on words,

    you wish we'd just hide.

Excuse us love -

But "we're" not through . . .

We still need to taste,

     the first kiss from you

Forgive us love -

If we make you tired.

We're thirsty in a desert,

    waiting for you to say . . .

"Forgive me, I too love"

forgive us love . . .

we can't let go.

forgive us love . . .

we won't let go.

forgive us . . .

2012.12.12 @ 1135