Let Us Go (180 degrees from Let It Go II)

          Let Us Go

   (180 degrees from)
        (Let It Go II)

driving to the top of the city,
   drive until we reach the view.
where “we” used to try and see,
   a dream come true.

stop the car, light a cigarette,
   fill the air with the radio.
and there's nothing we can do,
   but think of you.

We never thought that we would be the other man -
We thought “we” were just friends, but you had other plans -
We just won't take that chance -
But there’s no turning back -
Just a victim of circumstance -
We don’t believe in love so . . .

Let Us Go!
Let Us Go! (Let It Go!)
Let Us Go!
Let Us Go!
Let Us Go! (Let It Go!)

when “we” crossed over the line,
   you said there’s no one home.
but we know it wasn't true,
   what's he think of you?

you couldn’t leave well enough alone, no
   this wreckage doesn't seem to bother you.
as long as you are having fun,
   you don't care who you use.

We never thought that we would be the other man -
We thought “we” were just friends, but you had other plans -
We just won't take that chance -
But there’s no turning back -
Just a victim of circumstance -
We don’t believe in love so . . .

Let Us Go!
Let Us Go! (Let It Go!)
Let Us Go!
Let Us Go!
Let Us Go! (Let It Go!)


We just can't take that chance -
And there’s no looking back -
Just a victim of circumstance -
We don’t believe in love!

Let Us Go! (Let It Go!)
Let Us Go!
Let Us Go! (Out Of Love!)
Let Us Go!
Let Us Go! (Oh You Gotta!)
Let Us Go! 
Let Us Go! (Let It Go!)

2013.12.06 @0035

He Said He Loves Her

      HE SAID HE LOVES HER

he said I love you. . .
  she said I don't know what to say to that.
    he wasn't in her mind, and there ain't nothin' he can do.
so he swallow hard. . .
  screamed through the Afghan night.
    tryin' to figure out how he had read the whole thing wrong.

and in the silence
his heart begins to unravel
he never knew her
and he never will now.

Fallin' into love a slow painful climb.
Puttin' his heart back out on the line.
Closin' the door on all the pains he used to know.
Fallin' into love a stumble back on to his feet.
Burnin' inside from a moon lit heat.

And finding out that he has to just let it go.

he know's she'll call. . .
  him out of the blue some day
    and she'll think she's talkin' to who he used to be.
So when he tells her. . .
  he needs to just stay alone.
     his heart breaks as her voice cracks when she says goodbye.

and in the silence
his heart continues to unravel
she never knew him
and she never will now

Fallin' into love just fucked up his life.
Puttin' his heart right back under the knife.
Closin' the door on all the dreams he he'd hoped for.
Fallin' into love knocked him off his feet.
Burnin' again on that dead end street.
And finding out that he has to just let it go.

Oh and nothing feels as bad as letting go.

He said he loves her.

2013.11.14 @ 1139

WHY DID YOU

      WHY DID YOU
    ( a kay jay song )

we're not the kind of person,
   who falls quickly in or out of love.
but you had all our affection,
   right from the start.

to have a lover,
    who loves us.
but we've such a fragile heart,
   yet still you have our attention.

why did you come here
when we have troubles enough
why do you call to us
when we have had it so rough

make us lie to ourself
that we don't need you
you're with someone else
we are just an unknowing fool

you make us pray
for what we should not
your pull so strong
on all the weakest parts of us

why did you come here
only to pass us by
we need to see you
to know that love is just a lie

Feeling guilty worried,
   tormented in our sleep.
This love has us wrapped so tight,
   but love always cuts too deep.

If you choose us now,
   we'll eventually lose out.
Changing your allegiance,
   will just fill our heart with doubt.

why did you come here
when we have troubles enough
why do you call to us
when we have had it so rough

make us lie to ourself
that we don't need you
you're with someone else
we are just an unknowing fool

you make us pray
for what we should not
your pull so strong
on all the weakest parts of us

why did you come here
why couldn't you just pass us by
why do we have to love you
why do we need to hold you tight

why did you come here?

2013.11.03 @ 2325

we close our eyes

                         we close our eyes

we first saw you, from across a crowded room. 

we thought no way, 'cos we'll be leaving soon. 

later that night, we found that all we could do.

was close our eyes, and dream we were alone with you. 

as days went by, we fell in love and felt insane. 

we dared to think, maybe you were feeling the same. 

and every night,  there was nothing we could do. 

but close our eyes, and dream that it was true. 

you finally showed us, just how much we're wrong. 

we tell our self,  just forget it and try to carry on. 

and though we try, there's nothing we can do 

but close our eyes, and dream that we're alone with you. 

we close our eyes.

we close our eyes . . . 

and wish it could have worked with you. 

2013.08.28 @ 1915

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The Ghost Of . . .

 

            The Ghost of . . .

As always the pain was there . . .

But there were a few nights . . .

And they, were all we'd dreamed of.

Love was the thing . . .

But we felt as if our past was following us.

And we  knew we weren't wrong . . .

It was the ghost of what we wanted to be

And it's the ghost of the past that we live in

It's just the ghost of what we really want

And it's the ghost of a chance that we live for

And it's a ghostly future we are frightened of

So we looked for an angel.

So long ago we were an innocent . . .

That has nothing to do with age . . .

"We" were never lovers. 

"We" were only friends . . .

There is nothing really more to say.

Just the ghost of what we want to see

And it's the ghost of the past that we live in

It's a ghostly future that we're so frightened of

So we turn away from angels.

So the silver-eyed boy looks for absolution . . .

Trying to fill the empty spaces we're feeling . . .

We cling to our music like a savior.

And we know it's no good to fall in love again . . .

We were in love . . .

She was just in like . . .

Sadly that's all there really is to say.

It was the ghost of chance of what we wanted to see

The ghost of the past we feel trapped in

The ghostly future that we're so frightened of

But we turn away from illusions . . .

And we stop looking for angels

They don't exist here on earth . . .

And it's so hard to believe in heaven . . .

2013.08.17 @ 1515

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Back To Stone

                 Back To Stone

Under our feet are air made of bricks

That pull us down and makes us weak for you

And we're slowly repeating like a broken tune

Forever excusing your intentions

And we give in to our pretending's

Which forgive you every time

Without you even knowing

You turn our heart back to stone

And we hear your words that we made up

You say our name like there could be an "us"

We need to flush out our head 

We were the only one in love.

Each and every time you turn to another

We feel our heart burst and bleed

Desperately we try to get it linked to our head

But instead we fall back to our knees

As you spin and tear away from us

We forgive you once again

Without you even knowing 

You've burnt our heart back to stone

And we hear your words that we made up

You say our name like there could be an "us"

We need to flush our head out

we were the only one in love

Why did we let you steal our heart

When we where standing on solid ground

You built us up

Then you left us for dead

and we heard your words 

that we made up in our head

you said our name 

like there was an "us"

we need to flush our head out

we were the only one in love

2013.08.11 @ 1015

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Wrong Night

        Wrong Night

we'd  set our mind to it, 
knew we weren't gonna do it.
we wouldn't give our heart up, 
keeping our guard up.
then you walked in,
with your sad half grin.
everything we swore before,
flew right out the door . . .
as we got lost in your eyes.

Suddenly we heard love songs everywhere.
Walking on the moon in a star filled sky.
Like gravity or destiny there was nothing we could do.
Looks like we picked the wrong night -
Not to fall in love with you. 

so briefly we resisted, 
but our heart insisted.
hard as we where trying, 
there was just no denying. 
it felt almost a sin,
to so easily give in.
walking beside us,
we felt everything but lust . . .
and then you took our hand.

Suddenly we heard love songs everywhere.
Walking on the moon in a star filled sky.
Like gravity or destiny there was nothing we could do.
Looks like we picked the wrong night -
Not to fall in love with you. 

"we" talked of the strife,
of a couples life.
you just weren't ready,
our heart rule our head.
you said you could be a friend,
we hoped your heart would mend.
just as "we" begin,
with someone else you where all in . . .
and Meat Loaf sang with your voice.

"i want you"
"i need you"
"but there's no way I'm ever gonna love you"
and we feel bad,
'cos two out of three's just sad.

Suddenly we heard love songs everywhere.
Walking on the moon in a star filled sky.
Like gravity or destiny there was nothing we could do.
Looks like we picked the wrong night -
Not to fall in love with you. 

2013.08.08 @ 1225



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If Only

                          If Only

 If only we'd have thought to send you roses
 For no reason then to just send them to you
 And if only we thought to say more clearly we love you
 If only we'd not assumed by then you knew

 And if only we'd have tried a little harder
 If only we'd have said a little more
 If only we'd have held you closer
 Then maybe we'd be holding you tonight
 If only you, if only us
 The saddest words are not goodbye
 They are if only

 If only "we" hadn't pretended nothings going on
 It might have truly started going
 If only we'd have paid a bit more attention
 To all the little things we might have your all today

 And if only we'd have tried a little harder
 If only we'd have a bit more clear
 If only we'd have held you tighter
 Then maybe we'd be holding you tonight
 If only you, if only us
 The saddest words are not goodbye
 They are if only

 If only we'd not gone half a world away
 We'd have been the one you needed
 And if only you'd waited just a second longer
 We wouldn't like such a fool

 And if only we'd have tried a little harder
 If only we'd have excepted just a friend
 If only we'd have never held you
 Then maybe we'd not wish to hold you tight
 If only for you, if only for us
 The saddest words are not goodbye
 the saddest fucking words are . . .
 if only

 2013.08.02 @ 1530


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From Here Out

   From Here Out
   
   welcome to the inert
   workings of our mind.
   so dark so twisted
   so much we despise.
   on nights like these
   we are so afraid.
   of our heart of darkness
   and what we thought.
   you never saw
   what "we" could be
  
   Fate had a tantrum with our dreams.
   Said to much on a page,
   Too late it seems . . .
   Read to much into what we see,
   Now we want to hide.
   Deep in in our only dream,
   To our self we'd lied.
  
   Twisted in our thoughts.
   We have a hate for what,
   Hope had wrought . . .
   Wishes fade like flowers wilting,
   Hide behind our wall.
   Ghost's now scream from every angle
   Dead dreams left waiting for fall.
  
   and in our darkest hour,
   when we can find no light.
   welcome to the inert
   workings of our mind.
   so dark so twisted
   so much we despise.
   on nights like these
   we are so afraid.
   of our heart of darkness
   and what we thought.
   you never saw
   what "we" could be
  
   from here out . . .
   keep our eyes open . . .
   and our lips shut . . .
   our heart closed . . .
   and our dreams in . . .
  
   2013.08.01 @ 1030
  


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Angels Just Fly

      Angels Just Fly

we never got that first kiss
and to us that’s a sorrow
as yesterday faded away
no hope for a tomorrow
all dreams just pass and change
and come to an end, we know
nothing is written but old news
again and again
we know that it's true
after all of these years
that angels just fly
we saw the world in your eyes
but we’re just a name
we're always just a step behind
drawn like a moth to your flame
we've been alone for too long
but we no longer cry
if you want to see all of our fears
just look deep in our eyes
we know that it's true
believe it or not
but angels just fly
we know that it's true
there's been too many tears
‘cos angels just fly
we just walk away
as you walk on by
our fears have all come true
we wish it's all a lie
there's no more tears
now that we're out of time
we’ll just fade away from you
as you close your eyes
we know that it's true
believe it or not
but angels just fly
we know that it's true
there's too many fears
and angels just fly
we just walk away
we just say goodbye
wishing it wasn’t true
or that it was a lie

no more tears . . .
angles just fly . . .


2013.07.29 @ 0050

This Goodbye (is forever)

    This Goodbye (is forever)

 

Sometimes we have no choice

When our heart, finds its voice
Screaming out what it needs to say
Talking into a world turned gray
We couldn’t stop our greatest fear
The tragedy, here come the tears
Believe it.
 

this time . . .

goodbye is forever
yes, this time . . .
goodbye is forever
and ever . . .

Sometimes it makes no sense

Circumstance or is it coincidence
Caught up in our own barbed wire
Self promises, we’re now a liar
So sure we wouldn't cry or break
Even knowing the choice she’d make
Believe this.

hey, this time . . .

goodbye is forever
yes, this time . . .
this goodbye is forever
and ever . . .

2013.07.28 @ 0600

Put Out The Flame . . .

            PUT OUT THE FLAME . . .

We always believed in our dreams before -

  Even when we were afraid of the dark.
Now at the edge of the world in our head -
  & the gun points straight at our heart.
The scream used to come only when asleep -
  But now, it's only a dream away -

We always seem to be found by angels -

But this time, it’s not the same
Bringing down the pain
This dream is burning again
Put out the flame
Bring down the rain

We had hoped the storm would just go away -

  That the thunder was made in our mind.
That the heart of darkness would keep us warm -
  And love could be told to the world.
The scream used to come only when asleep -
  But now, it's only a dream away -

We always seem to be found by angels -

But this time, it’s not the same
Bringing down the pain
This dream is burning again
Put out the flame
Bring down the rain

Trapped in the middle, trapped in shadow -

Bring down the rain
The scream used to come only when asleep -
But now, it's only a dream away -
We always seem to be found by angels -
But this time, it’s not the same
Bringing down the pain
The dream is burning again
Put out the flame
Bring down the rain
Can't play the game
Bring down the rain
Put out the flame
Bring down the rain

2013.07.27 @ 0800

Why Wait?

        Why Wait?
      ( track 12.2 )

we won't wait -
to hear goodbye escape your lips.
in you,
we got torn in two.
you don't see -
us reflected in your scenes.
we fall -
we don't count at all.

we can almost feel you breath
we have fallen way too deep
we can almost hear you say
but the words get in the way

why did we wait?
just to remain outside.
why wait?
for the reasons why,

we came to soon -
from the shelter of our room.
you move on -
we stumble on the moon.
we can't fall -
we're not made to crawl.
we're the one,
that slowly comes undone.

we can almost feel you breath
we have fallen way too deep
we can almost hear you say
but the words get in the way

why did we wait?
to get left outside.
why wait?
for the reasons why.
this is not what we want -
was it even worth the try?
why wait?
for the space outside.

we can't win -
or save you from the state you're in.
you won't see -
our reflection or our tears.
we fall -
we don't count at all.

we can almost feel you breath
we have fallen way too deep
we can almost hear you say
but the words get in the way

why did we wait?
to be left outside.
why wait?
for the reason why.
this is not what we want -
this is the mind crime.
why did we wait?
to be left outside.
why wait?

2013.07.26 @ 0900

TRACK 12.1

             TRACK 12.1

we waited
waiting for her world to let us in
standing in a frozen half life
in dark and empty streets
a smile hiding demon granted fears
wanting so much more
and trying to ignore what we don't believe in

she's the one we wanted to love us
we're the lost one that became found
the moment we decided to let love in
now we're outside the door of an angel
the end of fear is where it begins
because we decided to let love in

we wished
wishing for her to find her way
we held out all she could need
that's all we will say
we took the chance and waited for time
but we can't control her soul
and she let us know not to believe in

she's the one we wanted to love us
we're the lost one that became found
the moment we decided to let love in
now we're outside the door of an angel
the end of fear is where it begins
because we decided to let love in

there's nothing we can do about
the things we have to do without
the only way to feel real again
is not to let love in

there's nothing we can do about
the things we have to live without
the only way to see clear again
is not to let love in

she's the one we wanted to love us
we're the lost one that became found
the moment we decided to let love in
now we're outside the door of an angel
the end of fear is where it begins
because we decided to let love in

2012.07.26 @ 0415

A Letter To Our Younger Self

    A Letter To Our Younger Self

Well move over little self.
Give us a little room by the wishing well.
Give a little listen to us now.
We’re gonna try to save us a lot of hell.

Now we know us a whole lot better.
How we came to be so strong.
Don’t forget what we say now.
Even though you think we’re wrong

   don’t fight so hard to live -
   things happen for a reason.
   don’t fight so hard to live -
   every reaction has a cause.
   don’t fight so hard to live -
   it’ll be better to let go early.
   we know it sounds like treason -
   but don’t fight so hard to live.

So many things will fail.
Too many tears, scars and broken hearts.
If you give us a little listen.
We can stop the pain before it starts.

We’ve been through it all.
Cast our coins into wishing wells.
Listen up little self.
Don’t buy the dream she sells.

   don’t fight so hard to live -
   things happen for a reason.
   don’t fight so hard to live -
   there will be a chance to choose.
   don’t fight so hard to live -
   it’ll be better to let go early.
   we know it sounds like treason -
   but don’t fight so hard to live.

                                       2013.07.19 @ 0900

Only Lonely

           Only Lonely

Ready to embrace new life,

   instead we break.
Well our sight grows dim,

   yet we are wide-awake.
All the many sleepless nights,

   when we thought you cared.
Well the jokes on us,

    cause it was never there.

 

crushing in the silence

living is in this empty space
watch the ticking of the clock
whose hands are laughing in our face
and we just don't want to be lonely
night and day
and as we look around us
we just feel that way
only lonely

We thought we’d found something,
   good for our heard and our head.
And we tried to forget,
   that dream wants to stay dead.
Yet we opened up our mind,
   to all that love embraced.
But now it seems to us,
   the effort was a waste.

love always slips away
before we have the chance to say
how can we be so wrong
why does it have to end this way
and we just don't want to be lonely
night and day
and as we look around us
we just feel that way
only lonely

existing in the silence
living in an empty space
hear the ticking of the clock
dark rainbows laughing in our face

2013.07.13 @ 0300

Unsent Letters

              Unsent Letters

Nightfall, we're almost out of this town.
Destination, nowhere close to you.
Slowly driven to this point.
How deep our silver-eyed fire burns
We've no intention of confession tonight.
We need to put some distance down.
But miles didn’t make your image fade.
And they couldn’t erase your smile.

Everything reminds us -
Wet grey gold-lit streets -
Cheesecake displays near-lovers meet -
We feel the grasp of your hand still -
See your face on the mountain grass -
Breathing whisper what is this -
Bent so close ‘we’ nearly kiss -
Although we never will.

Strange there's still this hurtful need.
The usual scream of rainbow dreams.
How desire can make the heart bleed.
Could it be, we always knew.
“As you wish” is meaningless.
No candlelight that causes burn.
Memories of you mingle,
With old unwelcome friends.
So sad they've returned

Everything reminds us -
Footsteps on the moon -
Crazy spinning sultry glance -
We inhale your presence still -
These your arms of daring grace -
Encircle us, what pact is made -
Desire is your masquerade -
Want us you never will.

You live for truth.
And gave us an illusion.
Now we are used to this confusion.
But we know, yes we know.
This story has an end.
Ever groped for a connection.
Ever hoped for more affection.
For we know.
We know we are your friend.
Only your friend

2013.07.12 @2355