Run Now

                        -  RUN NOW  -

oh no,
here it comes again.
we remember when we felt so close to love before.
hold on,
good things never last.
“the pain’s” not in the past, it always seems to come again,
again and again and again . . .

So We Live For Today,
And Pray Tomorrow Never Comes -
Run Now, Run Now.
Before We See The Writing On The Wall?
Run Now, Run Now - 
Somehow We Have Got To Stop This Fall.
Run Now.

cry out,
and pray to just stay sane.
there’s still time to save us from the dead rainbow dream.
hide out,
before the feelings over whelm.
Skarsoul’s at the helm, sailing for the other side.
heaven and hell again and again . . .

So We Live For Today,
And Pray Tomorrow Never Comes -
Run Now, Run Now.
Before We See The Writing On The Wall?
Run Now, Run Now - 
Some How We Have Got To Stop This Fall.
Run Now.

weary,
of the angels spell.
knowing we are right, and again so full of fright.
hearing,
the toll of the bell.
our demons coming forward to destroy this new dream.
out of the shadows, grinning as they scheme . . .

So We Live For Today,
And Pray Tomorrow Never Comes -
Run Now, Run Now.
Before We See The Writing On The Wall?
Run Now, Run Now - 
Some How We Have Got To Stop This Fall.
Run Now.

cry out,
and pray to just stay sane.
there’s still time to save us from the dead rainbow dream. 
hold on,
good things never last.
our demons coming forward to destroy this new dream.
again and again, again and again and again

So We Live For Today,
And Pray Tomorrow Never Comes -
Run Now, Run Now.
Before We See The Writing On The Wall?
Run Now, Run Now - 
Some How We Have Got To Stop This Fall.
Run Now.
(again and again and again)
(fear the night)


 
2014.09.07 @ 0120

Easier To Run

           EASIER TO RUN

She Found It Easier To Run -

Then Waiting For "Us" To Become More -

She Said She'd Rather Be Alone -

Than Risk Hurting Her Heart Just Like Before -

Some times we get a glimpse,

    of our golden path.

The dream of love and happiness, 

    that never ever lasts.

This scar runs deep but it'll never show, 

    and never go away.

Burned into the pictures in our head, 

    on pause and then replay.

- (if we could change this we would)

- (erase her pain we would)

- (replace every mistake)

- (she thinks she's made we would)

She Found It Easier To Run -

Then Waiting For "Us" To Become More -

She Said She'd Rather Be Alone -

Than Risk Hurting Her Heart Like Before -

Now we have to reconcile, 

    our present with "our" past.

Trapped here with her memories, 

    we wish we didn't have.

Hoping we can letting her go, 

    and simply walk away.

Finally looking forward, 

    and free our self at last.

- (if we could change this we would)

- (erase her pain we would)

- (replace every mistake)

- (she thinks she's made we would)

She Found It Easier To Run -

Then Waiting For "Us" To Become More -

She Said She'd Rather Be Alone -

Than Risk Hurting Her Heart Like Before -

if we could change this . . .

. . . we would . . .

instead we'll take all this pain . . .

. . . to our grave

2014.07.20 @ 1645

Something 'Bout You

      SOMETHING 'BOUT YOU

we finally knew,
the difference between alone and lonely.
then through our walls,
you came crashing through.
how could this be real,
so afraid of our feelings.

oh, there was something 'bout you

we couldn't believe,
the way that "we" were.
"we"  just had a way,
of finding what's right.
and here in our heart,
there's mixed up emotions

oh, there was something 'bout you

we never needed,
anybody.
like we need you now.
we never planned it,
can't understand it,
so tell us what are we to what do. . .
as you're walking away.

yeah, there is something 'bout you

2014.07.02 @ 0940

IF ONLY

                          If Only


If only we'd have thought to send you roses
For no reason then to just send them to you
And if only we thought to say more clearly we love you
If only we'd not assumed by then you knew

And if only we'd have tried a little harder
If only we'd have said a little more
If only we'd have held you closer
Then maybe we'd be holding you tonight
If only you, if only us
The saddest words are not goodbye
They are if only

If only "we" hadn't pretended nothing's going on
"We" might have truly started going
If only we'd have paid a bit more attention
To all the little things we might have your all today

And if only we'd have tried a little harder
If only we'd have a bit more clear
If only we'd have held you tighter
Then maybe we'd be holding you tonight
If only you, if only us
The saddest words are not goodbye
They are if only

If only we'd not been so broken
We'd have been the one you needed
And if only you'd waited just a second longer
We wouldn't feel like such a fool

And if only we'd have tried a little harder
If only we'd have excepted just a friend
If only we'd have never held you
Then maybe we'd not wish to hold you tight
If only for you, if only for us
The saddest words are not goodbye
the saddest fucking words are . . .
if only

2014.06.29 @ 1205

Gone Astray

            Gone Astray

Now that love has gone astray
We're just tryin' to find our way
Came together from so far away
We're just tryin' to find our way...

Do you understand the trust
When we showed you every part of us
Now that you've gone away
We're just tryin' to find our way...

.

We have made a great mistake
Pray The Godz our soul to take
Ghosts of what could be
We can feel them come for us
It looks as though they're here to stay
We're just tryin' to find our way...

We are in the worst of hells
Losing coins to wishing wells
We're just tryin' to find our way...



2014.06.29 @ 1030
(All we got so far, and no chorus)





Sent from our iPad

softly, over

         softly, over


it's over,
   We didn't get a say.
Silence fell that Monday night,
   and then you drove away.
We can still remember,
   how easily you made our dream go away.

understanding?
no.
we're trying -
understanding?
no.
can you hear "us" cry.

We pray,
   surely it's all a lie.
Everything you told us can't explain,
   how you could just let this chance pass by.
Wishing there was a chance to talk,
    you tell us you don't have the time.
But we still try.

understanding?
no.
we're trying -
understanding?
no.
can you hear "us" cry

Speak now,
   while there is day light.
All the things we should have said,
   when you held us tight.
Still we keep on trying,
   till this mourning ends.
Another night.

understanding?
no.
we're trying -
understanding?
no.
can you hear "us" cry

we'll be waiting for you,
hoping,
that someday you'll hear "us" crying,
but there seems to be no answers,
just the echo of our cries.



2014.06.27 @ 1545



[here's a first... losing in the day time]



Sent from our iPad

Different Pain

          Different Pain

Before we just let you go -
    let us have one more night,

        to show you how “we” could feel.
We broke all our own rules -

    and if it takes our whole damn life,
        we'll try to understand your choice.

kind of like the rain
falling it’s whole life towards somewhere
then just crashing to the ground
blowing on the wind
that carries the clouds to hide
our beautiful moon and stars.

A Different Kind Of Pain
Is There No One To Cover Us?
Is Someone There To Take This Away?

We never said the words -
    wish we could turn back time

        and tell you just how we feel.
We needed you to know -
     it took our whole damn life,
        to find someone like you.

kind of like the rain
falling it’s whole life towards somewhere
then just crashing to the ground
blowing on the wind
that carries the clouds to hide
our beautiful moon and stars.

A Different Kind Of Pain
Is There No One To Cover Us?
Is Someone There To Take This Away?

Before You Let Us Go -
Before You Let “Us” Go -
We Need You To Know . . .

A Different Kind Of Pain
Is There No One To Cover Us?
Is There No One To Take This Away?

A Different Kind Of Pain
This Is A Different Kind Of Pain
A Different Kind Of Pain

it's a different kind of . . .

2014.06.26 @ 0435

The Same Pain

                The Same Pain

We never thought you’d take time,

And share your life with us.
We tried to take it real slow,
While we waited for you to decide.
We never should have fallen -
Should've never been such a clown.
Never should have loved you -
But you turned everything around.

It’s Nothing More Than The Same Pain
It’s Nothing More Than The Same Pain
As Always.
It’s Nothing More Than The Same Pain
You Threw “Us” Away
But We Gave Love Anyway

“We” didn't come from the same world,
But “we” saw it the same, you can't deny.
“We’d” each had “our” own hard times,

But “our” time was just so right.

We never should have fallen -
Should've never been such a clown.
Never should have loved you -
But you turned everything around.

It’s Nothing More Than The Same Pain
It’s Nothing More Than The Same Pain
As Always.
It’s Nothing More Than The Same Pain
You Threw “Us” Away
But We Gave Love Anyway

she gave us everything
then she took it all away
we can't sleep without her

2014.06.26 @ 0255

If Only For Tonight

    IF ONLY FOR TONIGHT . . .

if only for tonight -
   "we" could sleep in a bed of flowers.
if only for tonight -
   "we" could make love for hours.
if only for tonight -
   "we" could fall into an endless spell.
if only for tonight -
   we could know that all would be well.
And Breathe  -
And Breathe . . .

if only for tonight -
   our angel could come.
if only for tonight -
   her silver eyes said "you're the one".
if only for tonight -
   we could bury it deep.
if only for tonight -
   she could have real sleep.
And Dream Too -
And Dream Too . . .

and the rain could sigh
and "our" fears could slip away
and the wind would cry
don't let this end . . .

2014.06.23 @ 0430

And We Thank Her

    AND WE THANK HER

here is a song
about what should not be.
we are chained -
& insane.
but we were too blind to see
"the pain" on the way.
from the start this was wrong.

so here is a page
that wipes clean the slate.
our cage -
the heaviest cross
that we'll ever bear.
why'd "we" wait?
now "we're" trapped in this state.

& we thank her -
just for being here.
for giving us hope -
for easing our fears.
we've fallen for one -
we can't keep . . .

feeling her heat
burning up our sheets.
that scream -
knocked off of our feet
on our knees.
we're drowning in time
to a desperate beat.

& we thank her -
for just being near.
for giving us hope -
for easing our fears.
we've fallen for one -
we can't keep.

the godz have sent us
a true friend to call ours.
can't pretend -
or amend what we feel.
want to keep her near
but can't change her plan
as she just moves on.

& we thank her -
for just being near.
for giving herself -
for creating the tears.
we've fallen for one -
we just can't keep . . .


& we thank her.


20140623 - 0228-0240

All The Pain In The World [archives 1989]

    ALL THE PAIN IN THE WORLD

We can't believe,
   the shit that happens to us.
We should have seen long ago,
   that love was not for us.
The words that we write,
   don't help us get through the night.
So we just turn out the light,
   and lay awake alone.
all the pain, all the pain in the world.
all the pain, you've caused us girl.
all the pain,
all the pain in the world.

Time after time,
   we put our heart on the line.
And we hurt no one,
   no one but our self.
Can't forget what she said -
   the lies that burn in our head.
We only live day to day,
   but we're a day behind.
all the pain, all the pain in the world.
all the pain, you've caused us girl.
all the pain,
all the pain in the world.

Those are the words,
   we always say to our self.
But on the day that she left
   those words had flown away.
Forget what we say
   we're going to just run away.
Get away from it all
   and try to hide the pain.
all the pain, all the pain in the world.
all the pain, you've caused us girl.
all the pain,
all the pain in the world.

We can't believe
   this shit keeps happening.
Every time we think it is right,
   something just goes wrong.
The words that we write
   help us deal with the fright.
But when we're alone at night
   we cannot fall asleep.
all the pain, all the pain in the world.
all the pain, you've caused us girl.
all the pain,
all the pain in the world.

1989.03.06 @ 0132-0147

All Or Nothing (achives 2004)

      ALL OR NOTHING

we're in a hopeless situation
and we're starting to believe
that this hopeless situation
is all we'll ever achieve
but we keep on trying
'cos with us it's all or nothing
all or nothing . . .

here's our worthless confession
as we rush headlong into this war
can't help it if this destination
is the same one we've seen before
looking for someone to hold on to
'cos with us it's all or nothing
all or nothing . . .

all or nothing . . .


2004.12.19 @ 2028

The Bottom Line

           THE BOTTOM LINE

like a moth that's drawn to the flame.
we burn our self -
then do it all over again.
we are back for more.
it's something that is out of our hands.
just something -
that we just can't understand.
an unwritten law.
gravitational pull.
destiny calls.
so we follow.

like the fool wandering in the rain.
we tell our self -
that this time we are sane.
we walk on blindly.
saying this time our angel will stay.
it's a false hope -
we cling to anyway.
why did we fall?
the midnight star.
another scar.
yet we follow

we're burning
we're yearning
we feel loves wheel turning

like a pawn dealt out the mind crime . . .
we try again -
each & every time.
something we don't want.
so we're braced our self for "the pain".
knowing it would come -
but trying anyway.
we ask our self.
will the sun shine?
the bottom line.
we just follow.

we're burning.
we're yearning.
we feel loves wheel turning.
the sun will shine.
the bottom line . . .
we follow.


2014.06.21 @ 0300

Rainbow In The Dark [2004 archive]

       RAINBOW IN THE DARK

IT IS FRIGHTENING -
- JUST HOW CLOSE WE ARE TO DOWN.
IT CAME FREE, AND WE SEE, WHAT COULD BE -
- ONCE LOST IT CAN NEVER BE FOUND.
WE CRY AT THE TRAGIC -
- FEEL IT MAINLY LATE AT NIGHT.
WE FEEL COLD, IN OUR SOUL -
- BUT THE SHADOWS WE MUST FIGHT.
ALL THE SIGNS OF “THE MOURNING” RISING.
OUR HEARTS JUST A STONE.
WITH THE RAINBOW IN THE DARK.

ALL OUR DEMONS -
- WILL THEY EVER LET US GO?
WE HAVE TRIED, BUT CAN’T HIDE, WHAT’S INSIDE -
- “THE PAIN” IS SOMETHING WE JUST KNOW.
“THE DREAM” IS JUST A PICTURE -
- A PERFECT VISION, LOST WITH TIME.
LOVES A LIE, THOUGH WE TRY -
- SO WRONG WITHOUT A RHYME.
ALL THE SIGNS OF “THE MOURNING” COMING
AND WE FEEL SO ALONE -
WITH JUST THE RAINBOW IN THE DARK.

IT IS FRIGHTENING -
- HOW IT ALWAYS BRINGS US DOWN.
WE JUST TRY, NOT TO CRY, AT THE LIE -
- WE ONCE MORE TRIED TO MAKE ALIVE.
IT WOULD BE TRAGIC -
- IF IT WASN’T JUST OUR FATE.
IT’S “THE FEAR”, ALWAYS NEAR -
- BUT THE WARNING CAME TOO LATE.
ALL THE SIGNS OF “THE MOURNING’S” RETURNED
NO SIGN OF THE END -
WE JUST SIT HERE ALONE -
WITH THE RAINBOW IN THE DARK.
THE LONELY RAINBOW IN THE DARK.


2004.06.18
[ironic, 10 years to the day]

[editors note, on 1988.02.29 skarsoul wrote
     "There's A Rainbow (in the dark)"

the chorus of which is. . .

in the dark -
   there's a rainbow.
other side,
   where the dreams go to die.
in the dark -
   there's a rainbow.
other side -
   where the dreams go -
   where the dreams go -
that's where the dreams go
   when they die.]

Love Walked In

                  LOVE WALKED IN

So tired of waiting, of walking empty hand,
     we were looking for something to help us understand.
Why bad love kept turning our dreams into sand.

We didn't need pity, we had our share of friends,
     we wanted somebody more special than the rest.
We just ached inside like we were approaching the end.

Then there was this moment, the timing was so right,
     you appeared like an angel sent down to our life.
we thought we were dreaming, when you called us that night.

That’s When Love Walked In Through Our Door.
That Amazing Feeling.
We Had Once Before.
Love Walked In Through Our Door, And We Felt So Scared.

It became hard to remember, being on our own,
   “our” kind of loving, makes a hard man lose control.
But we slept so much better, once we weren’t alone.

We wish you had promised, you would always stay,
     we fight not to lose it, watching you walk away.
You don't need to doubt it, we’ll remember the day.

That Your Love Walked In Through Our Door.
We Found Just What We Needed.
And Oh So Much More.
Love Walked In Through Our Door . . .
     And It Felt So Strange -
     Like A Long Lost Friend -
     That Hadn't Changed.
     Giving Us Hope Again.
Love Walked In.

Maybe it was just that moment, or the timing was just right,
     but you appeared like the angel, we’ve waited for all our life.
We thought we were dreaming, when you called that first night.

That's When Love Walked In Through Our Door.
That Vaguely Familiar Feeling,
We Had Once Before.
Love Walked In Through Our Door . . .
     And We Felt So Scared -
     That We Would Lose Again -
     And Fell "The Pain".
Love Walked In Through Our Door . . .
     And It Felt So Strange -
     Like A Long Lost Friend -
     That Hadn't Changed.
     Giving Us Hope Again.
Love Walked In.

2014.06.18 @ 0302

The World Didn't Stop . . .

        The World Didn't Stop . . .

There were no angry words at all,
     As “we” stood there hugging in the hall,
          And then you put your one box in your car.
There was nothing that we could say,
     One last goodbye and you drove away,
          We watched your tail-lights as they faded in the dark.
We stared at the ceiling in our lonely bed -
And fought so hard to get out of our head . . .
    Last night the moon and stars fell from our sky.
    And tears welled up in our silver eyes,
    So sure our life was complete with you.
    But now the sun is blinding us,
    As it chases away the dark.
    Looks like the world didn't stop . . .
    Cos you broke our heart.

Seconds tick by, life goes on,
     The radio only wants to play love songs,
          And we try to hold our scattered heart in place.
Now it takes all the power we've got,
     To remember to program our coffee pot,
          The first of many lonely mornings we now have to face.
If you had called to see if we’re ok -
We’d have to take a pause before we could say . . .
    Last night the moon and stars fell from our sky.
    And tears welled up in our silver eyes,
    So sure our life was complete with you.
    But now the sun is blinding us,
    As it chases away the dark.
    Looks like the world didn't stop . . .
    Cos you broke our heart.

looks like the world didn't stop . . .
cos you broke our heart.

2014.06.18 @ 0005

Writing On The Wall

  -   WRITING ON THE WALL   -

The kiss off was colder than we remember
  when she first said hello
we guess her flame's now a little lower
  we can feel her letting go
and now the pain drops a little darker
  then when we first tried it on
  we guess love's like some old cheap magic marker
forever Now - is a no go
but she won't have to paint us a picture
she won't have to say anything at all
she won't have to paint us a picture
we see the writing on the wall

when we first fell, we fell a long way
  playful nights and work days
awake at sunrise, waiting for sunset
  wanting to hold hands in the haze
now it's cold heart november evenings
  and there's clouds on our sunrise
but we just fake a smile and say we're happy
  we can see what's in her eyes
she won't have to paint us a picture
she won't have to say anything at all
she won't have to paint us a picture
we see the writing on the wall


2014.06.10 @ 0555

In This Alone

     - IN THIS ALONE  -

We stay awake at night,
– to keep the visions of "us" from our mind.
So all that we feel is our heart beat,
- and the voices are calm, but sometimes . . .
     Where’d we go wrong -
     Old fears are coming back to us again -
     Oh, we wish it had worked –
     We want you to care for us -
     We feel empty –
     And like we’re in this alone.
        In this alone
           Can’t you hear us calling
        Alone
           In this alone
        Please rescue us.

We realize you’ve been hurt,
- we promise to never hurt you.
You have so much to forgive or forget,
- we know we can ease the hurt
Not trying will create new regrets. . .
     Where’d we go wrong -
     Old fears are coming back to us again -
     Oh, we wish it had worked –
     We want you to care for us -
     We feel empty –
     And like we’re in this alone.
        In this alone
           Can’t you hear us calling
        Alone
           In this alone
        Please rescue "us".


2014.06.10 @ 0445

You Said

       - YOU SAID -

Gave all "the pain" back
  To the Godz today
Nothing goes on here
  But the pains still inside
You'll never love us
  And we'll get no say
You'll never say so
  But your actions don't lie
We said don't turn away
  From what is right before "us"
You said I won't
  almost like you cared

You steal our vision
  Burning our everything
Nothing happened here
  It's all locked up inside
You'll never love us
  But we've got words to say
You'll never admit it 
  But the pain's still alive
We said don't turn away
  From what is right before "us"
You said I won't
  almost like you cared

You kept your feelings hid
Just like a mime
Burning everything
Take us with you
Won't you let us in


2014.06.10 - 0415

What Were You Thinking

 - WHAT WERE YOU THINKING –
               ( a princess )


what were you thinking,
  you stupid ass?
you’re to old –
  you’re ugly -
    too broken.
so what made you think,
  you could interest,
    a princess?

what were you thinking,
  poet - fool?
you bring baggage –
  that is 5 -
    too much.
so what made you think,
  you had a chance with,
    a princess?

what were you thinking,
  prince - of nothing?
you’re out of your mind –
  you’re crazy -
    too unstable.
so what were you thinking,
  when you decided on,
    a princess?

2014.06.10 - 0315
Skarsoul Speaks

Expectations

 - EXPECTATIONS -

you make an effort –
to spend time with her.
your passions high –
yet something still feels wrong.
you want to be her lover –
but this is what you find.
expectations burning up your mind.

it’s just to late –
to turn and walk away.
it’s been so long –
your secret little dream.
she said she would try –
then she ran away . . .

Expectation –
You Forget Not Everyone Reacts The Same.
Expectation –
Could She Be As Afraid As You.
Expectation –
How Could The Voices Be Wrong.

you close your eyes –
and see how it could be
oh so strong –
the one thing you both need.
but now you're in danger –
and wonder if the choice is made.
can’t fight the . . .

Expectations –
Wander In The Danger Zone.
Expectations –
Will Cut You To The Bone.
Expectations –
You Will Never Find A Home.

she just turns her head . . .
and walks away. . .
Expectations . . .
oh the voices were so wrong . . . 

 2014.06.10 @ 0200