Just Like Tonight

         Just Like Tonight

Something has been crushed,

   down deep inside of us.

A secret place kept locked away,

   so no one could get near.

Wounded deep will never show,

   and yet never go away.

The moving targets in our head,

   all the mistakes played and replayed.

And We Haven't Felt This Alone -

In Years -

Mr. Moon -

Is Hanging In The Sky -

Mockingly -

Reminding Us Of All The Failed Tries -

Sometimes we can’t remember,

   The pain and darkness of our past.

Then come crashing in the memories,

   we wish we didn't have.

We often think of letting go,

   and never coming back.

We can never seem to move forward,

   but always repeat our past.

And We Haven't Felt This Alone -

In Years -

Mr. Moon -

Is Hanging In The Sky -

Just waste away inside -

All of the helplessness aside -

Wishing we weren’t easily replaced -

It's never easy to win, it’s not hard to lose . . .

And We Haven't Felt This Alone -

In Years -

Mr. Moon -

Is Hanging In The Sky -

Mockingly -

Reminding Us -

Of All The Failed Tries -

When Our Brain Has Burned So Red -

We Simply Wished That We Were Dead

Just Like Tonight

(if we could change it, we would)

(take back all the pain, we would)

(erase every wrong move we made)

(we would)

(instead we will take this shame. . .)

(to the grave)

2016.11.26 @ 1930

SUCH A FOOL

                  SUCH A FOOL

on waves of love and hate our heart is breaking
a stranger to our self control
we can't rely on anymore
and no surprise our world it's burning
within the flames an ocean swells
behind the frown we know so well
we know, why
we know -
why
captain of a ship of fools
captain of a ship of fools
can't turn this around,
or stand on solid ground
Oh no, oh no


beneath a waning moon we're waiting
with no pilot in this storm
adrift in "the pain" we may drown
we built this hell, it is our making
and furthermore our self control
we can't rely on anymore
we know, why
we know -
why
captain of a ship of fools
captain of a ship of fools
can't turn this around,
or stand on solid ground
Oh no, oh no


we find we can't live like we're an island
it always ends with insanity
differences of just degrees
we stumble on in mental isolation
and at our feet, eternity
plans ever greater pain for us
we know, why
we know -
why
captian of a ship of fools
oh -
captian of a ship of fools
can't turn our heart around
or find a loving ground
Oh no -
oh no . . .


such a fool




2016.11.06 @ 0425

Rêveur Stupide

      Rêveur Stupide


It's a shame
  we believed,
    in the game.
That love is a real thing.


And that's "The Pain"
  we thought we'd finally
    done it right.
We tell us to let go -
  and do more then bare.
Cos we don't know -
  if she truely cared.
We're feeling so insane.


We Are A Rainbow Dreamer -
Chasing After Shooting Stars.
Such A Foolish Dreamer.


It's a shame -
  seems a roll,
    of the dice.
Decided on our fate.


And that's a shame
  in our trembling hands
    is our dreams.
We tell us not to react -
  like we don't care.
Maybe it was wrong -
  to think our fate could change.
And that someone would really care.


We Are A Rainbow Dreamer -
Chasing After Shooting Stars,
Such A Foolish Dreamer -
But Dreams Are All They Are.


Such A Foolish Dreamer.
Such A Foolish Dreamer -
Thinking It Was Worth The Try.
Just A Foolish Dreamer -
Cause All Dreamer Do Is Die!

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2016.11.06 @ 0315

Every Fucking Thing

     EVERY FUCKING THING

dear godz, we loved her.
so sorry, we weren't good enough.
we ask us, forgive us.
'cos in her eyes, we didn’t matter much .
In our heart, we know she failed “us”.
and once again we are alone.

If We Could Hold Back Our Pain -
We Would Dance In The Rain -
But We Still Remember, Everything.
We Wish We Could Only Forget -
All The Bull Shit And Regrets -
But We Remember, All The Pain.

dear godz, you hate us.
you never had our back, or stood by our side.
we ask us, not to blame us.
we only hoped we could finally get it right.
such a long, weary, lonely road.
when we always end up alone.

If We Could Hold Back Our Pain -
We Would Dance In The Rain -
But We Still Remember, Everything.
We Wish We Could Only Forget -
All The Bull Shit And Regrets -
But We Remember, All The Pain.

      We feel like running away . . .
      We have a house, but not a home . . .
      We think this will never change . . .
      But what the fuck do we know . . .
      We’ll burn this all to the ground . . .
      Before we let another in . . .
      We’ll forgive us, Just not right now . . .
       ‘Cos we remember all this pain . . .

If We Could Hold Back Our Pain -
We Would Dance In The Rain -
But We Still Remember, Everything.
We Wish We Could Only Forget -
All The Bull Shit And Regrets -
But We Remember, All The Pain.

going slow, yet It went to fast.
we can't change what has past.
we’ll always remember, this fucking pain.
If we could start with her again.
we know the ending would be the same.
we remember all the pain.
everything fucking thing.


2016.10.20 @ 0345 - sent from our android

UTOPIA / MYOPIA / DYSTOPIA

UTOPIA / MYOPIA / DYSTOPIA

What we don’t know,

   logic say’s can't hurt us.
But then we only hope to live,

   and our dreams die in fear.

Our head tells us,

   believe only half of what we see.
And to ignore,

   everything we hear.

She hides the twisted truth,

   no matter how high the cost.
Makes believe she’s right,

   with all the wrongs inside her head.

Ignoring all our questions,

   and giving us no answers.
Then sits and wonders,

   how “our” love ended up dead.

Utopia (becomes)
Myopia (becomes)
Dystopia

What we don’t know,

   logic say’s can't hurt us.
And that’s how we end up,

   in a mental cage.

There's panic in our mind and chaos,

   running rampant in our heart.
Where useless dreams of love,

    get crushed beneath all the rage.

Demoralized and destroyed by,

   the future that we sought.
Held a gun to our dreams,

   and she then chose to shoot.

Our foolish mistake was believing,

   she was what she portrayed.
We have to destroy this,

   cancer at its root

Utopia (becomes)
Myopia (becomes)
Dystopia

2016.10.17 @ 1315