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a thousand rainy days
and we speak in tongues though we’re no saint
burning down days like cigarettes
from our hollow space
all the things we wish to forget
like tainted pictures that we still keep
keep it all, hide our pain
let it never show
all of this yet, we regret
not a day that we were sent
celebrated and arose
all our dreaming in vain
frames the faces we applaud
with our same sad eyes
read the world between the lies
we hear it all, we hear it speak
like a name we call our life
let it never show
all of this we now regret
not a day that we spent
not a name that we might place
an emotion we could trace
not at our parade
in the four walls of our cell
standing where we wait
others live and we can't play
tore the pictures off our walls
there's a secret that we keep
let it never show
all of this we now regret
not a day that we miss spent
all of this we now regret
not a thing that we might replace
not at our parade
frame the faces we could kiss
our same sad eyes
see the world between the lines
we hear it all, we hear it speak
in the four walls of our cell

2013.03.10 @ 1100

Nothing Owed

        Nothing Owed

all the voices grow louder now
yet never loud enough
the dream crept away
to sleep in other beds
but never mind
we see no time
and there's not time enough
to burn it all away
we see no hands to hold
no faith to praise
no celebration, no parade
when the godz forsake us
and all the faces say
there's nothing owed
there's nothing owed us
it gets too dark
yet never gets dark enough
the lies around us fall
on all our useless plans
on all our wasted tears
us watching second hands
make second hand dreams
and faith's for those who can pray
but all our tears are gone
and thrown away
and there's nothing to take their place
when the godz forsake us
and all the places say
there's nothing owed
there's nothing owed us
we see no time
and there's not time enough
to burn it all away
we see no hands to hold
no faith to praise
and voices growing louder now
yet never loud enough
the world around us crawls
and sleeps in other beds
but never mind
no celebration, no parade
when the godz forsake us
and all the ecstasy say’s
there's nothing owed
there's nothing owed us
and there's nothing to take it’s place
when the godz forsake us
and all their fates say
there's nothing owed
there's nothing owed us

2013.03.10 @ 0915

The Endless In Between

     The Endless In Between

Where do we go from here?
How do we carry on?
We can't get beyond the questions.
Clambering through the wreckage.
In the shatter of us collapsed.
The cuts of every could-have-been.

Pain on pain on play, repeating
With the backup makeshift life in waiting.
Everybody says that time heals all wounds.
But how do you fill wretched hollow?
The endless in-between?
Are we just going to wait it out?

There's nothing to see here now.
Just move along, don’t turn around.
We're closed to dreams 'til further notice.
Clambering for the scraps,
Splintered mind collapse.
We've closed up shop 'til further. . .

An all-out one on one street-level cynic.
We'll be an out-and-out, tearful mimic.
Everybody says that time heals all wounds.
But how do you fill the wretched hollow?
The endless in-between?
Are we just going to wait it out?

And sit here cold?
Look, we'll be long gone by then.
The lackluster in-the-dust we lay.
Fluorescent lighting sets the scene
For all we could and should have been.
In the end, life got what it wanted.

Everybody says that time wounds all heels.
Left with this wretched hollow.
And the endless in-between.
Waiting for the lights to go out.

2013.03.10 @ 0600

Bang, Bang - Bye Bye

Bang, Bang - Bye, Bye

once we fell in love,
   like all the dreamers do.
finally in despair we,

   had to give up on “us”.
we never doubted it -
   like we did in school .
endless negativity,
   walls we just couldn’t get through.
and then she said so carefully,
   “you don't get a vote”.
“this is not a give and take”,
   “you are such a joke”.
 she said -
“as for you, and for I” -
“bang, bang”.
“bye, bye”.

now we have no dream,
   to lose our self inside.
we don't need to find a place,
   where we can go to hide.
we don’t crave it -
   like when we were a fool.
bled away the negativity,
   and slowly we got through.
now we say so carefully,
   no one gets a vote.
we won’t take that risk again,
    this is our own love note.
we said -
it's just a dream, so let it die -
bang, bang.
bye, bye.

2013.03.10 @ 0450