Just Another

         - Just Another -

 Seems we've sung this song,
   a thousand times or more.
And ends with us wondering,
   why'd we open up our door.
So we rebuild the wall -
Keep it all -
To our self -
oh ah.

Always seems we see
   or read too much.
And reaching out,
   becomes a lepers touch.
Bound in mental chains -
The sad remains -
A stupid victim of -
wanting to be loved

She's just the devil,
   in an angels disguise.
Her thoughts hide behind,
   the greenest of green eyes.
So we turn the page -
Lock our hearts cage -
Try not to be the victim of -
wanting to be loved.

Now we know that,
   Disney endings are a lie.
And Mister Sparks,
   will always make us cry.
So slam shut the cage -
And release the rage -
Just another victim of -
wanting love.

2015.12.26 @ 0115

M

                      - M -

Another lonely night this evening,

   just another broken almost start.
Our dark thoughts laugh at us in silence,
   point out the ruined castle 'round our heart.

See the distance away from happy,
   but no more tears in our eyes so grey.
We wear our pain like a badge of  honor,
   solo for life is the debt we pay.

So We’ll Just Hide Our Flame -
Won't Dance To Life's Game -
We’ll Safeguard Our Flame -
We Had Nothing To Lose -

And Nothing’s What We Gained.

 The voice inside had whispered a warning,
    telling us just don’t go there.
Don’t be fooled by her encouragement,

   ‘cos like the rest she won’t really care.

We wait for silence in our room,
   mourning the dream that’s so dead.
All of the courage it took just to open up,
   turns to mocking laughter in our head.

So We’ll Just Hide Our Flame -
Won't Dance To Life's Game -
We’ll Safeguard Our Flame -
We Had Nothing To Lose -
And Nothing’s What We Gained.

The words she spoke seem nothing but lies,
   another scar’s what we gain.
We knew better then to even try,

   so why we did we just can’t explain.

We should have listened to our hearts warning,
   and just run the other way.
We knew we’d just end up mourning,
   this cost us more than the price pay.

So We’ll Just Hide Our Flame -
Won't Dance To Life's Game -
We’ll Safeguard Our Flame -
We Had Nothing To Lose -
And Nothing’s What We Gained.

2015.12.21 @ 2310

Cover Us

editors note: Originally published 2012.12.21, and accidentally deleted during a punctuation correction...


          - Cover Us -


Whose trembling hands are these?
And what is this empty place?
We were happily lost,
   till we saw your face.
Here stands our empty house.
It once was so full of life.
Now it's home to a no one,
   who can have no wife.
It's just a hovel and –

Who- will have us now?
We- can't face another day
And who- will shelter us?
It's cold in here -
Cover us.

Under these fingertips,
We long for your body's rolls and dips.
We close our eyes,
   and you're here with us.
And as the day descends,
We'll shout from our window
To anyone listening.
"We're losing" -

Who- can save us now?
We- can't face another day
And who- will shelter us?
It's cold in here -
Cover us.

Oh -
In a plague of self hate questioning.
Tap dancing voices shouting ear to ear.
We hear the din of haters jousting.
When we're hiding with our head banging the wall.

Will you shelter us?
It's cold in here

2012.12.21 @ 0645

Coming Undone

          Coming Undone


Was it just a wicked game?
   should we have understood?
We fell too hard,
   just like we knew we would.
It didn’t work,
   as we hoped it could.
We couldn’t stop,
   even though we knew we should.

Out of our head,
   and the memories of you.
We'll never forget,
   what you put us through.
It wasn't right,
   the cards we drew.
Guess we were wrong,
   to believe in you.

An Internal War, Believe Or Not In Love.
Burning With A Fire, As It Ends Too Soon.
Danced With The Devil, Tripped On The Moon.
We Fell In Love, Now We’re Coming Undone
. . . and we’re coming undone
(coming undone)

from the outside looking in -
we turned our back on our self again -
now on the edge, and crying out -
so we ride and try to live it down -
we say we’ll never do it again -
and then we keep on giving in -
we have to turn our heart around -
‘cause it keeps on knocking us down -
bringing us down.

An Internal War, Believe Or Not In Love.
Burning With A Fire, As It Ends Too Soon.
Danced With The Devil, Tripped On The Moon.
We Fell In Love, Now We’re Coming Undone
. . . and we’re coming undone
(coming undone)

Once again we can see our,
   future repeats the past.
And so it seems,
   feeling’s never last.
Started slowly,
   still burnt out too fast.
Another question,
   we never should have asked.

We fell so hard,
   and it felt so good.
It didn’t last,
   though we know it could.
It was so right,
   and we always knew.
We were wrong,
   to believe in you

An Internal War, Believe Or Not In Love.
Burning With A Fire, As It Ends Too Soon.
Danced With The Devil, Tripped On The Moon.
We Fell In Love, Now We’re Coming Undone
. . . and we’re coming undone
(coming undone)

from the outside looking in -
we turned our back on our self again -
now on the edge, and crying out -
so we ride and try to live it down -
we say we’ll never do it again -
and then we keep on giving in -
we have to turn our heart around -
‘cause it keeps on knocking us down -
bringing us down.

bringing us down. . .
(coming undone)

2015.10.01 @ 1330

Hat Trick of Heart vs. Head

The Heart Vs. Head Hat Trick
               01.  Shadows, Grey & Pain
               02.  Before The Revealing
               03.  Only Us



       SHADOWS, GREY AND PAIN

Woke up in cold sweet again this morning
Don't know exactly where our heart is
We should have heard our heads warning
It does the best with what it has left
Shadows, grey and blame

It say’s love is just a beautiful delusion
Our heart wants to dance in the rain
It can't see the real and the illusion
Our head then tries to explain
Shadows, grey and pain

Our head says can you remember when
We last tried dancing in the rain
Our heart says yes, we felt so alive then
And we want that feeling again.
Shadows, grey and rain

As a cripple we stumble through the day
Our head and heart always at odds
Wonder which one we should let win
Or if we should just run away
Shadows, grey and pain

                                   2015.09.13 @ 0445




           BEFORE THE REVEALING

We have such beautiful dreams when we’re in our bed
Our heart sees no flaws, but they fill our head
We wish we never, told her our feelings
Our life was easy before the revealing.

We might have a shot, if we weren't so dark
So many friends of hers are such bright sparks
Our fears make us stumble, to find the words
To make her ours, she finds us absurd.

We don’t care who and what is in her past
We want to be the man that she loves last
We wish we never, told her our feelings
Our life was easy before the revealing.

All the beautiful dreams that should have stayed inside
When we let them out, they have always died
We wish we never, told her our feelings
Our life was easy before the revealing.

                                        2015.09.13 @ 0630




                     ONLY US

They say the world gives, but it only takes away.
Well she was definitely gone when we woke up today.
Shaving in the mirror as we try and adjust.
It's only us.

She knows we would give her all of heaven and the earth.
But she only ever shows us, just how little we’re worth.
Feel the wheels pass over, under the bus.
It's only us.

Angel can you just pretend.
That maybe you can love again.
But Angel we know better.
It's only us.
Wherever you end up tonight.
The satisfaction we invite.
Nobody knows better.
It's only us.

Well we went down the rabbit hole.
Of giving love a chance.
And we’ve begged all the Godz.
For our heart to have one more dance.
Spinning around, at the slightest sound.
But It's only us.

When our petite angel had fallen from the sky.
We picked up that little angel and we taught her how to fly.
We were wishing on rainbows, but the mourning always comes.
It's only us.

Everything you'll ever want, All you'll ever need.
The last tears you have tasted, The last time your heart will bleed
Look deep inside you
It's only us.

                                                     2015.09.13 @ 1300

RECKLESS

             - RECKLESS -

Oh No, Oh No, Oh No No

We said not single word,

   For three years nothing was heard,

      Most nights we screamed alone.

And then six months ago,

   He packed up his things to go,

      We entered the danger zone.

We built our courage up -

Opened up and we were though the door.

'Cos we’re reckless -

Afraid to burn.

Reckless -

Life circle still turns.
Reckless -

Fear ‘the rainbow’s” return.

We’re reckless -

Oh yeah .

Come inside our mind,

   And you’ll come to find,

      That you’re both demon and angel.

And here’s the funny thing,

   As you pull our heart strings,

      We are nothing but grateful.

We've been this way before -

Afraid to look at what’s crashing our door.
And we’re reckless -

Afraid to burn.

Reckless -

Life circle still turns.
Reckless -

Fear ‘the rainbow’s” return.

We’re reckless -

You have heard our words,

   And you’re head has whirred,

      You know you’re not alone.
Even late night,

  When neon kills day light,

      “We’re” in the danger zone.

“We” wait with pounding hearts -

A soft kiss was just the start
'Cos “we’re” reckless -

Feeling to burn.

Reckless -

And starting to yearn.
Reckless -

Willing to learn.

“We’re” reckless. . .

just a single word. 
we prayed that you heard.
It will be worth the fight.
And “we” can face the light.
And be reckless.

2015.08.23 @ 2230

Sent from our android

The Granite Queen

[we over heard the phrase tonight,]
[now is the perfect time to write a song.]
[while you're all angsty.]

[well Hy, is this enough angst for ya?]




        The Granite Queen

We caught a ride to hell,
   but we never could tell -
      'cause we were blinded by her eyes
She infected our brain,
   with her joy and pain -
      and turned our day to star filled night.

Well, things were going well,
   between she and we -
      and then we had to sail.
we heard our inside voice,
   say you've got a choice -
      but here’s your cross and the nails.

So we’re runnin’  -
We are runnin’ from the granite -
The granite queen.

Well, we rolled the dice,
   to see who’s win -
      us or he who just walked in.
We know it’s a cosmic rule,
   that we're a fool -
      and she reminded us again.

So we’re runnin’  -
We are runnin’ from the granite -
The granite queen.

Well, we went straight to hell,
   but we will never tell  -
      'cause we’re still blinded by her blue eyes.
With our tricked out brain,
    and the return of “The Pain” -
      and somehow our left becomes our right.

So we’re runnin’  -
We are runnin’ from the granite -
The granite queen.


2015.08.16 @ 2200

- sent from our android

A 12 Pack For Jay Kay

         A 12 Pack For Jay. Kay.

          01:  Strike Back

We can sense your inner strength.

Soft yet hard like mother nature.
We just started getting close,
   This motherfucker just walked back in.

We Don't understand, this little man -
Has taken over -
We can just explain how we feel
Now your all twisted up.
Everything just out of control and broken.
It’s just our world.
Everything’s all twisted up.
All your friends have got our back,
But you broke us.
This is our. . .

World

2, 3 here we come with the strike back

Well don't understand, how the disappearing man,
Can just take you over.
Don’t understand the things that you feel.
You lost the love us and the love you need.

2015.08.05 @ 2230

      02:  End At The Start

we finally gave in to you
after all the painful shit
“we” started building up slowly
should have seen the end coming
life and it’s usual trick
and just continued being lonely
you blew our minds away
left us crippled, going under
and it's gone today
we’re not happy that it is . . .

the end at the start

now you’re far away
in a sand storm, twisting slowly
all hope is gone today
we’re not happy, that it is . . .

the end at the start

our world, our love, all gone

we’ll just stay alone
keep the pain inside
want to torch the world
cause we’re on fire

our world, our love, all gone

it’s the end at the start

2015.08.05 @ 2245

          03: She Say’s

Back to alone.
Burning  everything around us.
Her feelings are unknown;
We can't believe how she drowned us
Well we can't deny,

It's all the little things she is

All alone.
Seemed like she never would find us.
Her destiny is unknown
we can't believe how she drowned us
We  won't deny,

It's all the little things she is

All the talking
It went nowhere
Bite the bullet
Unwind slow

2015.08.05 @ 2300

      04:  Confession

we always loved stars
but we then fell
into her world, she made us
we offered her real love
but she don't care
cause it's her world, she hates it
we think her past will always be
the only thing she'll ever see
another way for us to bleed
on her stage

we reached for her stars
but we fell short
into to her world, we wanted
we offered comfort
but she don't care
cause in her world, she can’t have it
we think her past will always be
the only thing she'll ever see
another way for us to bleed
on her stage

it gets old -
she's a mess -
we were bold -
and now confess -
she threw “us” away -
another angel died that day -
“we” never made it all the way -

did she care?

2015.08.05 @ 2300

        05:  Rape

We can't even start to believe,
  the angel reached out to hold us.
Now we feel like we've been raped,

   She just left us here

Same Old Song.
No One Really Wants Us.
Same Old Song.
She Left Us Standing Here.
But We're Fine.
Even Standing Here
We’ll Be Fine
No One Got Raped Here.

Could hardly breathe when we saw,
   her beauty right beside us.
Now we feel like we lost a race,
   she just left us here.

Same Old Song.
No One Really Wants Us.
Same Old Song.
She Left Us Standing Here.
But We're Fine.
Even Standing Here
We’ll Be Fine
No One Got Raped Here.

 

2015.08.14  @ 0100

   06. So Over Love

yes we’ve sung this song,

    a thousand times before.
we just wanted her ,

    but she wanted more.

so we’ll build a wall,

   keep the rest to our self

ah. . .

once again we cared to much,

   reaching out became a deadly touch.

wrapped in mental chains,

   all that remains is. . .

 again we fell victim to,

    believing love.

believing love.

she is an angel,

    in the devils disguise.

insecurity behind the

    bluest eyes.
so we turn the page,

    lock the cage. . .

we are the victim of

    believing in love.

believing love

she’s says she wants,

    he baby to be just her own.

baby just needs her

    mamma act grown.

but mamma’s gone,

    and slammed the door on.  .  .

just another victim of,

    believing love.

2015.08.14  @ 0300

07. We Can't Make You Love Us 02

we closed our heart
we had closed our life

we closed out the voices
inside our head.
you asked us to hold you
and then you shut us out.

we can't make you love us if you don't
you can't make your heart feel what it won't
and in the darkest hours
we poured out our heart and you said don't
‘cos you won't
we can't make you love us
when you don't
when you won't

so we close our eyes
and we close our heart
we ignore the screaming in our head
the mourning has come
so we'll do what's right
just give us 'til then
to give up this fight

we can't make you love us if you don't
we can't make your heart feel what it won't
and here in the darkness, in the final hours
we'll shut down our heart, stop feeling the power you don't
and you can't
and we can't make you love us
if you don't
if you won't

2015.08.16 @ 1245

      08.  A Granite Wall

The moon is rising,

    the hearts scorched black.

She’s said our love,

    won't be reflected back.

Her past has returned,

    so we roll on.

What was never there,

    cannot be gone. . .

A Granite Wall Came Between Love

A Granite Wall Prevented Love. . .

Our dream goes under,

    the end so fast.

Just like the first,

    Just like the last.

Our head can’t guide us,

    when passion leads.

The dream is screaming, 

    our heart just bleeds . . .

A Granite Wall Came Between Love

A Granite Wall Prevented Love. . .

The same old nightmare,

    is well in hand.

Comfort and security,

    she could have had.

The phoenix smolders,

    the dream put to rest.

Just going away,

    will be for the best. . .

A Granite Wall Came Between Love

A Granite Wall Prevented Love. . .

2015.08.16 @ 0100

09.  - Safer Here In The Dark (too) -

we are all right,

    we’re just crossing over,
         hiding from the sun.
it’s just another night,

    just the black in our soul,
         just another reason to run.

Running With Monsters In Shadows -
'Cos The Monsters Always Know -

We're Safer Here In The Dark.

oh, she was right,

    we are less than handsome,
        something we've always known.

before we asked for her light,

    we knew the dark rainbow,

        tried to be ok with alone.
Clutching At The Monsters In Shadows -
But The Monsters Always Know -
We're Safer Here In The Dark.

We'll be all right,

    we're finally crossing over,
        we will disappear.

gone . . .

Living With Monsters In Shadows -
'Cos The Monsters Have Always Known -
It's Better In The Dark -
Safer Here In The Dark -
ryan shot the sun

2015.08.16 @ 0110

          10.  - Nice Night (2) -

we are a thousand miles from her heart

    and a house is not a 'home'.
surrounded by so many people

    and yet are all alone.

she was never in our circle
    or the round would be a square.
and the more that we want her,
    the less she seems to care.

Nice Night For A Crucifixion -
Too Late To Run Or Hide -
It's Never Who It's Only Why . . .
Love Is Just A Lie.

Seems like when we start going forward
   the other boot takes a fall.
we look for stairs to heaven
   then answer dark rainbows call.

we have always understood
    no love is just the law.

then our dumb as plays with fire
    'cos our heart is made of straw.

Nice Night For An Execution -

No Hope, Just Say Goodbye -

It Will Always Be And We Know Why . . .
'Cos Love Is Just A Lie.

we were looking for a tomorrow
    and we forgot about today.
then  the past is just our future
    and it's there our dreams will stay.

And we see the pictures

    all the smiles for facebook.
our ultimate redemption

    if we can just unhook.

Nice Night For Persecution -

Never More, Not Worth The Try -

'Cos Life Has Proved Again -

That Love Is Just A Lie.

2015.08.16 @ 0125

    11.  We Could Be Good For You

You believe, you're better on your own?
Searching in vain, ignoring a real friend
Love is blind and so you'll end up alone
Your heart-break days, just will never end

We Could Be Good For You
Oh, My
We Could Be Good For You
Oh, my

you're so star-struck, living for the history
You need to change your life. . . that could be arranged
Consider your fate, written on a page
You’ve no time to waste for your luck to change

We Could Be Good For You
Oh, My
We Could Be Good For You
Oh, my

What you do now, isn't our concern
Just let us know how you survive with him
We want you to know, We may not be there
When he disappears again. . . remember that we cared

We Could Be Good For You
Oh, My
We Could Be Good For You
Oh, my

we could be good for you
we could be good for you

2015.08.16  @ 0145

    Ladies & Gentleman, Track 12

                       (again)

we woke on impact,
and felt the surveillance, of our third eye.
screaming as we fall down.
our smooth criminal mind,

returns to the scene of the crime.
always so blind, and we know it.
she was acting, like “we” could be.

we should have known better,
but do we ever, ever really know?
it seemed she echoed, what we felt in side.
we should have known, we'd never have her

We Don't Believe In Love
When We Do, We Play The Fool
We Don't Believe In Love
It's Never Worth The Pain Oh So Cruel.

return the nightmare, we've seen it before
from the first time, it’s haunted our every thought.
every held hand, became a fist in a glove.
No time for love it doesn't matter
we saw a difference , somehow she had a way.
to make our twilight seem like it was day.
she said she needed, to figure some things out.
it was a lie, 'cause she turned and said goodbye.

We Don't Believe In Love
When We Do, We Play The Fool
We Don't Believe In Love
It's Never Worth The Pain Oh So Cruel.
We Don't Believe In Love

We Need To Stop This Race,

We Feel Her Still
We Don't Believe In Love
It's Just Never Worth, The Pain That We Feel

no hope for romance

She sees no reason to
we only hope someday we’ll forget
the pain of knowing, what can never be
this is something we hoped to never see

We Don't Believe In Love
When We Do, We Play The Fool
We Don't Believe In Love
We'll Just Pretend, We Never Knew Her
We Don't Believe In Love
We Need Out Of This Place, We Feel Her Still
We Don't Believe In Love
It's Never Worth The Pain That We Feel

It’s Never Worth, The Pain Oh So Real.

2015.08.16 @ 0230