Don't Think Of Loving

   -  DON'T THINK OF LOVING  -

don’t think of loving -
‘cos it’s only ever done you harm.
don’t dance in star light -
‘cos “the pain” becomes too real.
don’t open doorways -
those are the keys, that open up your heart.
don’t try the date game -
it’s an addictive drug, that makes you lose your mind.
don’t dream of “the one” -
‘cos it always brings you ....DOWN

HEY YOU -
 - YOU’VE HEARD ME,
   - YOU KNOW I -
     - AM REAL.
I -
  - AM STRONGER -
    - THE ONE WHO TELLS YOU,
      - WHAT IS SAFE TO FEEL.
AND -
 - TO STRANGERS -
   - I AM DANGER.
AND I’M -
 - YOUR DARK SIDE,
   - YOUR ANGER
     - YOUR SANE.
I AM MASTER -
 - THE KEEPER OF THE,
   - SONG INSIDE YOUR BRAIN . . .
     - SAVE YOU FROM PAIN.
DON’T TRY -
 - DON’T LET THEM INSIDE YOUR MIND.
   - TURN AWAY,
     - TURN AWAY - GO.
NO -
 - DON’T LET THEM INSIDE YOUR HEART.
   - PROTECT YOUR ..... SOUL.

don’t tempt the darkness -
you’ll stumble and see “the fall”.
don’t let them inside -
‘cos “the pain” is so real.
don’t think of loving -
it’s only there to make you sad.
don’t dream of “the one”
‘cos it always . . . brings you . . .
. . . down
run away, turn away...GO.....

2012.05.31 @ 0427
{Skarsoul Speaks Directly}

Another Mid-Week Monday

- ANOTHER MID-WEEK MONDAY -

When we're alone -
 and the sun's, gone down.
We MUST pretend -
 that some, light still shines.
It's just a mid-week Monday.
Again.

Each time we think -
 "we've" just begun, it's the end.
Oh, someone we could love -
 wants to just, be friends.
It's another mid-week Monday.
Again.

Feels like -
 "the pain", on fire.
Feeling like -
 the crawling, of your skin.
Every day's a mid-week Monday.
Again.

Like a fly -
 against, the windshield.
Just when we think -
 we can have it all.
It's another mid-week Monday.
Again.

We've lost our -
 special place, to hide.
Just get ready -
 for her, to ride.
Have another mid-week Monday.
Again.

(again, and again, and again . . .)
(again)

2012.05.30 @ 0328

Come In From The Rain

- COME IN FROM THE RAIN -

lonely -
no one searching for us
so lost now -
deep inside our mind
and we feel like -
there’s no one who cares to find us
oh, what can we do when our whole world’s dying -
where are we going to run if we’re inside hiding -
we need to let go
feel the thunder - see the light
we’ve got the power - just start to fight
let it all come out
all the tears and pain
open up and -
come in from the rain

our eyes -
long to tell the story
of the secrets -
all wrapped in our disguise
and it’s so hard -
to reach out for loving
but, what can we do if we don’t start trying -
how are we going to live, when we feel like dying -
we gotta let go
run with the thunder - harness the light
we’ve got the power - need to stand up and fight
let it all come out
all the tears and pain
open up  and -
come in from the rain

our eyes - tell the story
of the pain - wrapped up like a secret
all the tears and pain
open up  and -
come in from the rain
when it all comes down
throw our fears away
open up - open up
there’s room for another love inside us

2012.05.30 @ 0100

Carousel

- CAROUSEL -

Oh -
our blood runs so cold.
this shity life -
will get better we're told.
we talk to you,
your heart as cold as steal.
you walk on by,
you walk on through.
where do you run?
you don't look back here.
we are.

Carousel -
for seven years "we" took a spin.
throughout it all -
soft touches, slept skin to skin.
face to face -
"we" said this was "our" place.
you walk on by,
still you run away from
"our" love.
still we ask -
stay the night,
give it a try.

we are only saying
that we think you're wrong.
come on take us with.
come on take us too.
come on take us home.
home again.

if your mountains crumble. . .
your dreams disappear into the sea.
come to us, "we" can cry.
stay with us this time -
stay tonight, every night.
ever - after, 'cos love in time
will save "our" love in your eyes.
just don't push us to far . . .
push us to far . . .
away.


(silver eyes still cry)

2012.05.26 @ 2346





Sent from our Verizon Wireless BlackBerry

Switch

                   -  SWITCH  -

YOU NEVER KNEW, SHE WAS GONE
'TILL SHE FLEW AWAY.
EVERYONE SAID SHE'S NOT
THAT KIND OF GIRL.
SO WHAT'S YOUR FEAR
EVERYONE SAID SHE'S JUST
IN A FUCKED UP MESS

YOU TRIED TO SHOW HER
YOUR WORLD WAS A BETTER PLACE.
YOU SHOWED HER
YOU WANTED MORE THEN HER FACE.

WILL SHE EVER CHANGE, THE WRONG
OR JUST LET IT GO ON.
EVERYONE SAID, HE'S NOT
THE MAN FOR HER.
YOU'VE TASTED HER,
AND BURNED AWAY.
EVERYONE SAID
DON'T FUCK THIS UP.

YOU SHOWED HER
YOUR WORLD WAS A BETTER PLACE
YOU TRIED TO SHOW HER
YOU JUST RUSHED THE PACE

2012.05.25 @ 0010

Such A Shame

 - Such A Shame -

Such a shame -
to believe in the game,
of love & everything.
The facts had changed -
until we're finally,
left with just "the pain".
tell us to let go -
we just stare.
maybe we don't know -
if we should share,
the fact that we still care.

It's A Shame,
 ( such a shame )
 Numbing Us With Rage.
It's A Shame,
 ( such a shame )
 Locked Within This Cage.
 ( such a shame )
 The Rapidness Of Change

rolling dice -
decide our fate,
and that's a shame.
our trembling hands -
try to cradle,
the remains of the path.
tell us to react -
we just stare.
maybe it's unkind -
we fought the change,
& that we still care.

It's A Shame,
 ( such a shame )
 Numbing Us With Rage.
It's A Shame,
 ( such a shame ) 
Locked Within This Cage.
 ( such a shame ) 
The Rapidness To Change

they tell us just relax.
and we just stare.
maybe we don't know.
if we should even care.
our golden path is dead.
It's A Shame
 ( such a shame )
 Numbing Us With Rage.
It's A Shame
 ( such a shame )
 Numbing Us In Pain
It's A Shame
 ( such a shame )
 Eliminate Every Trace Of Us.
 ( such a shame )
 This Eagerness To Change.

( such a shame )


2012.05.24 @ 0345 - Posted By Skarsoul at 0400

Live Hard, Love Free

  - LIVE HARD, LOVE FREE -

she's a hot piece of action
we'll shake her heaven and earth
we always get a reaction
push for all that we're worth
no denyin' - we smiled when she came
catch her breath - then do it to her again

Lost All, We're Free
All Day, All Night
Live Hard, Love Free
All Our Life

as the sweat slicks "our" thighs
and her heart starts to race
it doesn't come as a surprise
see the bliss on her face
no denyin' - we smiled when she came
we'll find another - for tomorrow's game

Lost All, We're Free
All Day, All Night
Live Hard, Love Free
All Our Life

move our hands with assurance
see just how far she can bend
push her limits of endurance
make her scream to the end
no denyin' - we smiled when she came
know after us - she will never be the same

Lost All, We're Free
All Day, All Night
Live Hard, Love Free
All Our Life

2012.05.24 @ 0145
(freedom's just another word,
         for nothing more to lose... Janis Joplin)

Try To Breathe

     - TRY TO BREATHE -

we try to breathe
 the memories bury us.
we try to face them but
 the pain is just too great to believe.
we know that only we can change
 everyone else will stay the same.
so we must step out of the darkness
 that our life became 'cause
we just needed some closure from you
 you were just to busy with yourself.
you were never there for us
 to explain the truth.
We just stuffed it down
 now we're moving on and wish.
we could let some of this anger fade
 but it seems the itch we are scratching.
Is the bed that "we" have made

so where were you?
 when alone we had to fight through.
you never took the time
 to ask us just what you could do.
we know that only we can change
 everyone else will stay the same.
so we must step out of the darkness
 that our life became 'cause
we just needed some closure from you
 you were just to busy with yourself.
you were never there for us
 to explain the truth.
We just stuffed it down
 now we're moving on and wish.
we could let some of this anger fade
 but it seems the itch we are scratching.
Is the bed that "we" have made

We never meant to fade...
Away

We NEVER MEANT TO FADE

we just needed someone to love us
 you were just into "us" for yourself
you were never really for us
 or cared how we felt
we just stuffed it down
 now you've moved on
we try to let this anger fade
 but it seems the itch we are scratching
are the scars you made

We try to breathe... 

2012.05.23 @ 0144

Shame On You (too)

-= SHAME ON YOU (too) =-

there's a tear
 in our eye.
BLAME IT ON THE RAIN
there's a tear
 in our heart.
BLAME IT ON THE STARS
there's a fight
 for our sanity.
BLAME IT ON YOU

BLAME it all away
what use is it anyway?
SHAME on the rain.
SHAME on the stars.
SHAME, SHAME, SHAME
on you.

the rain is good,
 it brings life to the
  desert of our soul.
the stars help us
 find our way at night.
you - all we wanted was you,
 though you brought on
  the tear in our heart.

so BLAME it away.
BLAME it on yesterday.
put the SHAME on the rain.
SHAME on our starry heart and,
SHAME, SHAME, SHAME
on you.

crying in the rain
 not feeling the pain.
when we could dream -
we pulled one away
 from the rainbow
and since you've sent it back...

SHAME ON THE RAIN.
SHAME, SHAME ON THE PAIN.
WHERE TO PUT THE BLAME.
SAME STORY DIFFERENT DAY.
SHAME ON THE RAIN.
BLAME IT ON THE FOOL.
AND SHAME, SHAME, SHAME
SHAME ON YOU TOO.

2012.05.22 @ 0330

Can't Have Forever

 - CAN'T HAVE FOREVER -

we're not an ordinary man
 but we know we cannot have "forever"
  so we take it where we can
too many nights without a day
 for the sake of avoiding pain
  we have lost our way
we always thought that we could fly
 till we were shot down from the sky
  no matter what we try
we can't have forever - won't try
we can't have forever - won't cry.

they say there's ice inside our veins
 a man of a thousand faces
  silver eyes and velvet chains
we know our heart is made of steel
 cos it never starts pounding
  till they strap us to the wheel
we always thought that we could fly
 till we were shot down from the sky
  no matter what we try
we can't have forever - won't try
we can't have forever - won't cry.

someone said I'll make you strong
 I can give you all your dreams
  tell you right and show you wrong
so we believed her, all her lies
 but there was an end to dreaming
  'cos "the mourning" made it die
we never looked above our head
 and so we missed the things she said
we always thought that we could fly
 till she shot us from the sky
no matter how we try
 we can't have forever
can't avoid "the pain"
 we can't have forever
never again
we can't, we can't, we can't
we can't, we can't have forever


("oh let it stay forever NOW"... Richard Butler)
2012.05.22 @ 0205

So Blame The Moon ( in a box mix )

- So Blame The Moon, The Southern Wind -
                      (in a box mix)

we remember where we were,
when we heard, "this is the end".
seems the harder that we worked,
the harder things were to mend.
we had no idea, the final cost,
as our dream died before our eyes.
found out of us, how little was thought,
the golden path denied.

As You Read This Song Our Friends.
Know We Loved You All.
Despite The Way Things Had Turned.
We Can No Longer Taking The Fall.

SO BLAME THE MOON.
THE SOUTHERN WIND.
THE DARK RAINBOW -
    THAT HOLDS DEAD DREAMS.
IF THESE ARE THE LAST WORDS -
YOU EVER READ,
THEN YOU IGNORED OUR SCREAM.

If Our Body Was Still Alive,
We Know Our Heart would Still Break.
All The Memories Of Us Left With You
And How "Our" Friendship Was Fake.

Move On, Is Easy Advice,
When It's Something You Say.
But Being The One Left Behind,
You Live Only Day By Day.

SO BLAME THE MOON.
THE SOUTHERN WIND.
THE DARK RAINBOW -
    THAT HOLDS DEAD DREAMS.
IF THESE ARE THE LAST WORDS -
YOU EVER READ,
THEN YOU IGNORED OUR SCREAM.

So As You Read This My Former Friends,
We Wish It Had Been Different With You All.
Please Smile, When You Remember Us,
And Know Our Regrets Are Not Small...

WE BLAME THE MOON.
AND THE SOUTHERN WIND.
THE DARK RAINBOW -
    THAT HELD ALL OUR DEAD DREAMS.
SINCE THESE ARE THE LAST WORDS -
WE WILL EVER SPEAK,
PLEASE IGNORE THE SCREAM.

2012.05.20 @ 0100

Welcome To The Edge

      - WELCOME TO THE EDGE -


walk the edge of a razor blade.
   concrete wall- to beat your head.
inside your soul it stinks of fear
   and pain, because you're near the end.
hear the voices at the dawn.
   now there's nothing left to lose.
you're just a chapter in her diary,
   and she's turned the page.
Hey Boy - Put Your Dreams To Rest.
Since You're Tired Of Searching,
   This Is Where It Ends.
There's Nothing Left To Lose,
   Nothing To Protect.
Learn To Love Your Anger Now,
   Now, Anger Is All You Have Left.
welcome to the edge.

through the towers of the mourning,
   you can't over look the cause.
forgotten Soldier of paradise,
   now paradise is lost.
destiny never realized.
   salvation lost among the clouds.
so tell us hero by the spiral stair,
 where is your hope at now?
Hey Boy - Put Your Dreams To Rest.
Since You're Tired Of Searching,
   This Is Where It Ends.
There's Nothing Left To Lose,
   Nothing To Protect.
Learn To Love Your Anger Now,
   Now, Anger Is All You Have Left.
welcome to the edge.


2012.05.19 @ 2130

So Blame The Moon ( on our feet mix )

- So Blame The Moon, The Southern Wind -
             (on our feet mix)

we remember where we were,
when we heard, "this is the end".
seems the harder that we worked,
the harder things were to mend.
we had no idea, the final cost,
as our dream died before our eyes.
found out of us, how little was thought,
the golden path denied.

As You Read This Song Our Friends.
Know We Still Love You All.
We Saw The Direction Things Were Turning.
Tried to avoid drama's squall.

WE CAN BLAME THE MOON.
OR THE SOUTHERN WIND.
HATE THE DARK RAINBOW -
    THAT STEALS DEAD DREAMS.
IF THESE ARE OUR LAST WORDS -
YOU EVER READ,
IT'S ALL PART OF THE GODZ SCHEME.

If When We Left 'Our' Friendship Was Alive,
We Know The Risk's You Took.
All Our Memories Of Us And You,
Eased The Pain Of Those Who Forsook.

"Just Move On", Is No Simple Thing,
As You Know It's Real Hard.
We Did Our Best To Escape The Pain,
But Our Heart Is Permanently Scared.

WE CAN BLAME THE MOON.
OR THE SOUTHERN WIND.
HATE THE DARK RAINBOW -
    THAT STEALS DEAD DREAMS.
IF THESE ARE OUR LAST WORDS -
YOU EVER READ,
IT'S ALL PART OF THE GODZ SCHEME.

As You Read This Now Our Friends,
You Know We Came Back Alive.
Just Smile, When You Think Of The Past,
We Pray 'Our' Friendship To Revive...

Just BLAME THE MOON.
AND THE SOUTHERN WIND.
THE DARK RAINBOW -
    THAT CRADLES ALL OUR DEAD DREAMS.
IF THESE ARE THE LAST WORDS -
YOU HEAR US SPEAK,
THERE SHOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN TEAMS.

2012.05.19 @ 0345

Forgotten II ( the )

-  FORGOTTEN II ( the )  -

we caught the reflection
we caught a glimpse
a giant reminder
all the whats
all the might have
and could have beens
another wasted day
in the same old way
and the question should we continue
the realization that we're
the forgotten
dream and pray
wish for better days
all so far away
forget it

it won't turn out the way we want
it won't turn out the way we want, will it?
it won't turn out the way we want
it won't turn out the way we want, ever?

now we remember
this is how the forgotten feels
now we remember
this is what we are
the pain will pass
and the tears will stop
and god himself will
stop fucking with us
the pushing down
the shredding torment
stuck in this hell
with the shit and the piss
it's not hard to believe
we are back to this
still at the beginning
fallen
crushed

it won't turn out the way we want
it won't turn out the way we want, will it?
it won't turn out the way we want
it won't turn out the way we want, ever?

now we remember
this is what being the forgotten feels like
now we remember
this is what we are
here at the end
we still pretend
the emotion we spent
hoping that she
would break free
so "we" could be
here at the end
we are . . .

. . . the forgotten

20120518 @ 2350

Rainbow In The Dark

   -  RAINBOW IN THE DARK  -

IT IS FRIGHTENING -
- JUST HOW CLOSE WE ARE TO DOWN.
IT CAME FREE, AND WE SEE, WHAT COULD BE -
- WHAT'S LOST CAN NEVER BE FOUND.
WE CRY AT THE TRAGIC -
- FEEL IT MAINLY LATE AT NIGHT.
WE FEEL COLD, IN OUR SOUL -
- ALL THE SHADOWS WE MUST FIGHT.
ALL THE SIGNS OF “THE MOURNING” RISING.
OUR HEARTS JUST A STONE.
WITH THE RAINBOW IN THE DARK.

ALL OUR DEMONS -
- WILL THEY EVER LET US GO?
WE HAVE TRIED, BUT CAN’T HIDE, WHAT’S INSIDE -
- “THE PAIN” IS SOMETHING WE JUST KNOW.
“THE DREAM” IS A PICTURE -
- A PERFECT VISION, LOST WITH TIME.
LOVES A LIE, THOUGH WE TRY -
- WRONGS WITHOUT A RHYME.
ALL THE SIGNS OF “THE MOURNING” COMIN’
AND WE FEEL SO ALONE -
WITH JUST THE RAINBOW IN THE DARK.

IT IS FRIGHTENING -
- HOW IT ALWAYS BRINGS US DOWN.
WE JUST TRY, NOT TO CRY, AT THE LIE -
- WE TRIED ONCE MORE TO MAKE ALIVE.
IT WOULD BE TRAGIC -
- IF IT WASN’T JUST OUR FATE.
IT’S “THE FEAR”, ALWAYS NEAR -
- BUT THE WARNING CAME TOO LATE.
ALL THE SIGNS OF “THE MOURNING’S” RETURNED
NO SIGN OF THE END
WE JUST SIT HERE ALONE.
WITH THE RAINBOW IN THE DARK.
. . .THE LONELY RAINBOW IN THE DARK.

2012.05.18 @ 0330

The Owl

             - the owl -


Owl is crying forlornly in the dark.
We heard him calling to his love last night.
We waited with him to hear the familiar answering cry.
Our heart fell with his,
As the silence fell, louder than a cry.

He is calling again tonight,
Only to be answered by the Southern Wind.
We have never seen Owl.
We have only heard him calling. . .

. . . And waiting.


2012.05.17 @ 2320

Thank You

       - THANK YOU -

we say - thank you.
for the places "we've" been -
and all we've seen.
for killing off our greatest dream -
without caring about what that would mean.
So oh-oh, we say thank you.

we say - thank you.
you showed us the way -
and that we could still play.
we've been between your thighs -
and now we never want to die.
now you know the reason why -
Oh-oh, we say thank you.

you don't care about the harm you've done
so we think we're gonna run . . .

we say - thank you.
with the lies you told -
and the future you sold.
but we take the blame -
that "we're" no longer the same.
oh Godz - we loved the way you came -
Oh-oh, we say thank you.

we say - thank you.
for coming so near -
and feeding on our fear.
for who and what you are -
from what we were you took us so far.
and now our heart bears a brand new scar -
oh-oh, we say thank you.

you don't care about the harm you've done
so we know we'd better run . . .

2012.05.17 @ 0345

Metamorphosis & March Of Life

- METAMORPHOSIS - oh - we feel it’s time, for metamorphosis. so we kill our internal conversation and just get on with it with loves fading and the dead dreams paling we are failing and we are begging to climb on the cross and kick the last nail in yeah - we are like that with the twins voices screaming inside our mind but if we open our mouth we can't be held responsible for the shit that comes out or "the pain" we inflict so instead we put up walls and try not to shout we move away from loves heat 'cos we know that life's over as we slip and go under slip the cross onto our shoulder shuffle down the street put on a straight face just pull ourself to our feet and head for closing time for metamorphosis oh- so we put on our face ignore the shout's kill the conversations and shut our mouth pull up the walls shoulder the cross and get to our feet build the cocoon shuffle down the street climb inside for metamorphosis 2012.05.16 @ 0130

- MARCH OF LIFE - We're stuck between -   a rock & a hard place,     it is scream time. Trying to understand -   "we" were gonna save,     then she walked away. Caught in between -   our poet & our warrior,     walking alone at night. Cast aside -   we wave away,     "the golden path" We Know How The Hammer Feels, Driving In Our Crosses Nails. Loves Images Pass Us By, Another Try Cries & Fails. Frozen In An Endless Climb, As The March Of Life - Passes Us By. The path slipped -   through our hands like water,     hear the dream scream. Cruising in the bars -   trying to fill,     Angels void. Trying to find -   an answer to,     why all the lies? Wandering lost -   wish it was more,     then what it seems. We Know How The Hammer Feels, Driving In Our Crosses Nails. Loves Images Pass Us By, Another Try Cries & Fails. Frozen In An Endless Climb, As The March Of Life - Passes Us By. 2012.05.16 @ 0155

PAIN (the)

     - PAIN ( the ) -
  [ Jean-Baptiste Alphonse Karr  ]
  ["The more things change, the more they stay the same"]
{this one originally written in 2004}

we realize we're dead,
 we're fucked in the head -
  we're not living without you.
our life is a game,
 our life is a shame -
  we just exist without you.
our heart is a joke,
 and our dreams have been choked -
  we're just not living without you.
our life is lonely
 especially when we're alone -
  we just exist without you.
you're bleeding us, you're bleeding us
you're bleeding us, You're bleeding . . .

We realize we're dead,
 we're fucked in the head -
  we're not living without you.
our life is a game,
 our life is a shame -
  we're just existing without you.
this heart has been choked,
 and our dream is a joke -
  and we're just not living without you.
You're bleeding us, you're bleeding us
you're bleeding us, You're bleeding . . .

You!
you've taken all from us,
 what We have to see -
  and all "we" cannot be.
our love our,
 godz our love -
  bleeding us dry.
What's this? what's this?
 We can't live

We realize we're dead,
 we're fucked in the head -
  we're not living without you.
our life is a game,
 our life is a shame -
 we just exist without you.
this heart is a joke,
 and our dream has been smoked -
  we're just not living without you
And our life is a game,
 we're dead all the same -
  we just exist without you.
you're bleeding us, you're bleeding us
you're bleeding us, you're bleeding . . .

2004.07.06 @ 0017

Rainbow in The Dark (the)

- RAINBOW IN THE DARK ( the ) -
           { - the secret place - }

there's a secret place,
 the dead dreams go.
they are all there,
 but their pain doesn't show.
once they get inside,
 they can never get out
there can be no coming back,
 we hear them shout.

welcome to our hide away,
 our secret place.
how we arrived,
 we can't explain.
you're welcome too,
 if you want to stay.
but everyone,
 has always run away.

there's a secret place,
 the dead dreams go.
they are all there,
 but their pain doesn't show.
once they get inside,
 they can never get out
there can be no coming back,
 we hear them shout.

once they get in,
 can't take them out.
we can't do more,
 then twist and shout.
we've lost our soul,
 without a trace.
but we found it in,
 our secret place.

there's a secret place,
 the dead dreams go.
they are all there,
 but their pain doesn't show.
once they get inside,
 they can never get out
there can be no coming back,
 we hear them shout.

we hide from those,
 that try to find us.
"the pain" and "the fear",
 always right behind us.
we've lost ourself,
 we must confess.
but we can explain,
 how we got in this mess.

there's a secret place,
 the dead dreams go.
they are all there,
 but their pain doesn't show.
once they get inside,
 they can never get out
there can be no coming back,
 we hear them shout.

2012.05.15 @ 0330
[released into the wild to sink or swim at 1115]

Breakdown (the)

           -   BREAKDOWN ( the )   -

ON THE OUTSIDE, YOU SEEM TO HAVE IT ALL,
   YOU ARE SO IN CONTROL.
BUT DEEP WITHIN YOUR SOUL,
   YOU'RE LOSING IT.
YOU ALWAYS TAKE THE BLAME,
   BURNING UP YOUR BRAIN.
I KNOW THAT YOU'RE INSANE,
   AND REELING FROM THE PAIN.

I SAW THE BREAKDOWN -
KNEW EVERYTHING WAS GONNA BREAK DOWN EARLY -
I SAW THE BREAKDOWN -
TELL ME AGAIN WHY YOU DIDN'T LISTEN -
YOU CAN'T NAME A REASON TO KEEP LIVING THIS WAY -

YOU FELL HARD, FOR ALL HER LIES,
   AND EVERYTHING SHE SAID.
NOW THE VOICES IN YOUR HEAD,
   ARE ALL YOU HEAR.
NOW AS  YOU CARRY ON,
   THE PHYSICAL IS GOOD ENOUGH.
SO YOU BETTER ENJOY YOURSELF,
   BEFORE YOU CHECK OUT.

I SAW THE BREAKDOWN -
KNEW EVERYTHING WAS GONNA BREAK DOWN EARLY -
I SAW THE BREAKDOWN -
TELL ME AGAIN WHY YOU DIDN'T LISTEN -
YOU CAN'T NAME A REASON TO KEEP LIVING THIS WAY -

WHEN YOU FIND YOURSELF.
THEN YOU WILL BELIEVE.
THAT WITHIN YOURSELF.
IS ALL YOU CAN CONCEIVE.

I SAW THE BREAKDOWN -
KNEW EVERYTHING WAS GONNA BREAK DOWN EARLY -
I SAW THE BREAKDOWN -
TELL ME AGAIN WHY YOU DIDN'T LISTEN -
YOU CAN'T NAME A REASON TO KEEP LIVING THIS WAY -

you know the reasons
          ( you can find the reason to ) 
no one else will make you live that way
          ( you can find the reason that way ) 

{ Skarsoul Speaks Directly }                         2012.05.14 @ 0305

Forgotten (the)

    -  FORGOTTEN   ( the )  - 

 
Black as his soul can get,
 everyone is safer now.
Her love was a suckers bet,
 and he's still not sure how.
Just a blurring severity,
 how did he get so lost.
Eleven roses sent in naiveté
 now buried by her frost.

THE HAPPINESS OF SUNSHINE
HE CAN REMEMBER SOMETIMES
THE FORGOTTEN

Thought he had it all,
 then she called his bluff.
That's how he found,
 his skin wasn't thick enough.
He wants to go back,
 to how it was before.
He thought he had lost it all,
 then he lost a whole lot more.
Such foolish devotion
 at the sight of her face.
His tears of regret
 swallowed by his empty place.

THE HAPPINESS OF SUNSHINE
HE CAN REMEMBER SOMETIMES
THE FORGOTTEN . . .

     . . . FORGOTTEN


2012.05.13 @ 0420

Horror, Easy, Thing (the's)

- HORROR ( the ) - we beat our brain. it's a part of us. it's inside of us. we're stuck with dead dreams. it's changing us. . . we are becoming. the us that we knew, never had second thoughts. now our heart's covered with scabs, and we are broken and sore. the us that we knew. doesn't come around much. that part of us, isn't here anymore. "the pain" never disappears. it's the nature of our circuitry. drowns out all we hear. there's no escape from this, our sub-conscious. the us that we knew, had such intense feelings. but the blood - has stopped pumping, and we're left to decay. the us that we knew. was killed by liars. and even when we're right, with us we're so far away. we can try to get away. but we’re nailed down. we can try to drown out, her words echoing in our ears. we can see it killed away, all our trust parts. we don't want to listen. but it's all too clear. hiding backwards. inside of us. we feel so afraid. . . Angel, could you just hold us? we might just slip away. they won't give up. they want us dead. goddamn the voices. . . inside our head. 2012.05.12 @ 0315

- EASY ( the ) - we couldn't - believe how easy it was for her. she put the gun to our dreams - BANG ! ( so much pain from such a tiny little act ) permanent solutions temporary problems a lifetime of fucked relations can be fixed in one determined flash - CRASH ! ( replace the dreams with the head ) everything's wrong with this, our world the deepest shades of "the mourning" blackness all fury razor's spilling out of our mind 2012.05.12 @ 0345          - THING ( the ) - PAIN IS THE THING -      THAT KEEPS US AWAKE,      keeping our senses sharp,      AND AWARE OF OUR SURROUNDINGS. PAIN IS THAT THING -      THAT LET'S US KNOW,      we've been hurt,      BUT HAVE TO KEEP MOVING ON. PAIN IS THE ONE THING -      THAT GOOD OR BAD,      reminds us,      WE'RE STILL ALIVE. 2012.05.13 @ 0425

RING(s) (the)

- RING ( the ) ( bought at Irwin ) - we listen to - the words she had to say. and in our head - we felt betrayed. now our plastic face - a fake smile portrays. while all our insides - are left cold and gray. there is a place where - what's left of our heart remains. it's eatin by "the fear" - it's eatin by "the pain". the sweetest price - we've ever had to pay. the day the golden path - finally went away. into a box - we put her letters. all her words of "our" - future that would be better. we couldn't stand the thought - of giving back to the rainbow. the dreams she helped - recreate and retrieve, so to the jordan we did drive - they too went into the box. all the everything into the water - weighted down with a one carat rock. we heard all the words - she didn't say. and in our head - shelby cried, felt betrayed. now our body get's large - to survive when we're away. while all the tears - fill our eyes of gray. there is no trace of our heart - only the scars remain. destroyed by "the mourning" - wrecked by "the pain". the sweetest price - angel made us pay. the day the golden path - finally went away. 20120511 @ 0430

- RING ( the ) II - well we've worked so hard lately, to do more then watch our heart bleed. if we become twice as large as we were, we still couldn't be all that you need. still we say that we don't love you, but if we hear or think of you. admit that it's not true. still waiting for the closure, is consideration beyond your view ?      the ring.      forever carved in stone.      crushed into dust.      the ring.      cut our heart to the bone.      and offer it to us. so we just feel nailed down here, hanging off of our personal cross. wondering if "our" love was a sin, and ignoring what it cost. wrap our stab wounds up in bandages, confused by what "we" went through. we could get everything we want, if given a little time with you.       the ring.      forever cast in stone.      ground down to dust.      the ring.      an angel in flesh and bone.      was it only lust. 20120511 @ 0455

wretched (the) & fragile (the)

- WRETCHED ( the ) - We got a reflection - We got a glimps - We got a reminder  of all our dreams   and could have beens. "Maybe it will work another day" "Maybe it will happen some other way" But we didn't get another reason to continue  and now we've joined the ranks   of the wretched. THE HOPES AND PRAYS ALL THE BETTER DAYS AND THE FAR AWAYS FORGET THEM. it didn't turn out the way it should and it didn't turn out right, did it. it didn't turn out the way it could it didn't turn out right, did it. NOW WE KNOW THIS IS WHAT HELL IS NOW WE KNOW HOW HELL FEELS our eyes rain tears,  and our heart cracks open. the godz themselves  reached out their fucking hands. and squeezed the life  out of our heart. just to push us down. just to push us down. stuck in this hell with the tears and our fears. back at the start spinnning away sinking. and at the end we still pretend not knowing when she will return for one of the wretched. it didn't turn out the way it could it didn't turn out right, did it. now we know what hell is. now we know how hell feels. we can try and stop it, but it just keeps on hurting. we can try and stop it, but . . . we're one of -  - the wretched. 2012.05.11 @ 0251

- FRAGILE ( the ) - she shined into our world of ugliness she mattered when everything was meaningless fragile - she didn't see "our" beauty she pushed it all away fragile - it seems that we're not worth saving we just watched her slip away we just watched it fall apart she read our mind . . . . . . made us love then she just passed us by and now we can see if we could fix ourself we'd - but it's too late for us we just watched it fall apart we'll find the perfect place to go, and run, and hide we'll build a wall we can keep it all inside . . . but they keep waiting . . . and picking at . . . the fragile it's something we had to do we were there, too but like every other time . . . we just watched it fall apart fragile . . . 2012.05.11 @ 0259

You

          -  YOU  -
You. . .
for You.
only You. . .
all for You.
we can never know -
we can never care -
we can never love another woman,
we can tell you, how we feel.
we will never lie -
we will never try -
we will never cry to another woman,
since you pushed us. . .
pushed us away.
in a lonely place -
keep on running 'round the world -
yes, a lonely person -
somehow begging -
beg for more. . .
but we’ll cry for you.
we may die for you.
this pain in our heart is so real.
and we’ll tell you now what we feel inside.
feel in our heart is all you.

You. ...
oh for You.
only You. . .
all for You.
we can’t make you try -
we can’t make you sigh -
we can’t make you again love us,
we know this, is the deal.
we can make you lie -
we can make you cry -
we can make you wish that we’d die,
we know this. . .
this is real.
such a lonely person -
we keep passing time away -
just a lonely person -
time’s just passing –
passing away. . .
but we cry for you.
we may die for you.
the pain in our heart is too real.
and we’ll tell you now what we feel inside.
feel in our heart is for you.

we shiver,
we shudder,
we try to recover,
this feeling takes control.
all alone,
not alive,
in our soul.
drive around town,
feel loves crime,
cross another line,
we can feel it,
blanket our soul,
out of our mind.
all around town,
see another crime,
no reason or rhyme,
pain piles higher and higher,
all the time.
all around town,
steal another dream,
push your new love in our face,
‘cos, we feel it,
it’s anything but fine.
you push your love in our face,
to remind us of our place.
OK, fuck you!
WE DON’T WANT TO SEE MORE.
OH HELL NO, OH HELL NO.
THE PAIN IN OUR HEART IS ALL YOU.
BUT, IT'S OURS ALL ALONE.
WE DON’T WANT IT NO MORE.
AND IT’S OURS ON OUR OWN.
IN THIS PAIN WE’RE ALONE.
WE DON’T WANT IT NO MORE.
AS WE CRY FOR YOU.
YES, WE’LL DIE FOR YOU.
PAIN IN OUR HEART, IT IS REAL.
WE DON’T WANT IT NO MORE.
AND WE TAKE EVERYTHING.
THAT GETS PUSHED OUR WAY.
WHAT WE FEEL IN OUR HEART IS ALL YOU.
AND WE’LL CRY FOR YOU AS WE DIE FOR YOU.
PAIN IN OUR HEART IS SO REAL.
AND WE’LL TELL YOU NOW -
HOW WE FEEL INSIDE
FUCK YOU.
IT’S ALL YOU.

2012.05.10 @ 0329

The Release

“THE RELEASE”
{ A SONG OF HOPE AND HEALING }

We release you
 to go on in your pain.
We’re letting go
 cutting all the strings.
Know we've done
 all that we could.
To keep us from
 drowning in the games.
We gave to you
 all that we had.
The things we made
 and had to steal.
And at the end we
 no longer could feel.
Lies where told
 that we wanted to believe.
Running round & round
 ignoring "our" needs.
But finally...
 we are starting to heal.

We’re ready now
 to go on with our life.
Working on as we
 keep working through this mess.
Still have the wish
 "we" could have found a way.
A return to
 happy man and wife.
We gave to you
 all that we had.
The things we made
 and had to steal.
And at the end we
 no longer could feel.
Lies where told
 that we wanted to believe.
Running round & round
 ignoring "our" needs.
But finally...
 we are starting to heal.

We hope someday
 that you will find the cure.
To save you from
 the turnings in your brain.
Until then
 you'll never understand.
The loves you have
 will somehow end the same.
We gave to you
 all that we had.
The things we made
 and had to steal.
And at the end we
 no longer could feel.
Lies where told
 that we wanted to believe.
Running round & round
 ignoring "our" needs.
But finally...
 we are starting to heal.

20120509 @ 0035

The Other Side Of Down

  - The Other Side Of Down -

Sundown –
another busy day watching time go by
Old pain standing in the way, and we don't know why
'Cause here we are making changes
Alterations in our house of cards
But we've a whole new arrangement
Are we at home, are we at a house, are we?

Look down –
almost gone from here as the time flies
we found we've lost invitations - we don't know why
we're so behind in our repayments
This whole bereavement was long overdue
But we're at sixes with the statements
Are we at six, are we a six, are we?

Shut down -
Another twist of fortune that wasn't in the plan
Forced into a new design for living - do the best we can
Losing steps, one forward, three back
But we’ve lost so much, we’ve lost track
Are we the best we can, are we the best, are we?

Head down -
Sometimes we’re happy, like “we” used to
Each time it comes as a surprise, what to do
Another drain on our emotional resources
Information's getting out of hand
And our spirit feels trampled by wild horses
Are we at home, are we a six, are we, are, we?

2012.05.08 @ 0230

If Only ( the two saddest words)

              - If Only -
  ( the two saddest words)

We’re living with her ghost...
In the attic of our mind.
And she’s getting by without us -
But we've been spending all our time,
With the woman we remember.
She'll never leave or have to go...
‘Cos when she left, she left our memories -
Now that's the only thing we know.
The recent past gives us no comfort...
And our future seems so lost.
This way we can remember us -
Forever as the man we should have been.
And she, she moves on...
But her memory remains the same.
And we, we can't change enough -
And we think living with her memory,
Will slowly drive us insane.
We’re not perfect, but we're empty...
And it is so lonely in our mind.
‘Cos her ghost is in our memory's -
The only thing she left behind.
“we” where working, but then she left...
And that's the hardest part to accept.
So we'll keep on living with her memory -
‘cos it is all that we've got left.

2012.05.03 @ 0126

This Is The Head

- THIS IS THE HEAD –

This is the head.
Where the crimes happened.
So much wasted emotion,
Between these ears.
Heart and mind tear asunder -
As we slowly go under.
It all happened,
But most of it happened -
Here in this head.

We once had peace -
And we had a home -
But there was always something,
Hiding on the telephone.
We wondered who -
So searched out the when -
Found out the where,
And guarded against it all again.

So much wasted time -
As we wondered what -
And figured out the how,
All the endless turmoil inside.
Inside our heart -
Inside this head -
And we let it all go,
Moments too late. . .

And we knew the who, what -
And we knew the where, when -
The hours wasted over again.
And we knew the time, how -
And now that we cry -
We finally figured out why...

This is the head.
Where the crimes happened.
So much wasted emotion,
Between these ears.
Heart and mind tear asunder -
As we slowly go under.
It all happened,
But most of it happened -
Here in this head.

20120502 @ 0345

Above The Clouds

ABOVE THE CLOUDS

we came along
 to see your face.
and the only thing
 we heard from you.
was telling us
 it's fantasy.
that you would not
 return to us.
- we can tell now that is true.
( we can tell now that it's true )
- we understand
- and it's not alright
- not alright, not alright,
- no it's not alright with us
- but we finally believe you now.
we guess it's like
 a mountain side.
you cannot see it
 till at the top.
but floating in
 the sea of dreams.
the only thing that
 we could see.
- was the view above the clouds
( was the view above the clouds )
- we're waiting here
- but it's alright
- it's alright, it's alright,
- yes it's alright with us
- we've got nothing to believe in now.


20120501 @ 0100