- just a girl -

               - just a girl -
          (kalee epilogue 03)

just a girl
a dum dum girl
such a girl
a dum dum girl

another “boundary” with no regret
   a kill without blood on her hands
showing a complete lack of respect
   see how mercenary she stands

just a girl
a dum dum girl
such a girl,
a dum dum girl

another hand now in her hair
   show one then another face
moving on without thought or care
   with just a keystroke to erase

just a girl
a dum dum girl
such a girl
dum dum girl

the boy had stood at the wishing well
   tossing pennies at his fears
now so ashamed at how fast and far he fell
   breaking down in silent tears

just a girl
a dum dum girl
such a girl
a dum dum girl

. . . just a boy stealing back pennies from the well


2017.11.10 @ 0345

Winds Of Change 04

     Winds Of Change 04
         (a kalee song)

In the moon and stars we find,
    we have all that we need.
Can't remember the question,
     but the answer is all we see.
Pain used to be a window,
     a point of view to the unknown.
Soft arms and warm chocolate eyes,
     now our house becomes a home.
 
We find the world inside,
     our head no longer burns.
The empty loneliness within,
    us has suddenly turned.
We're content to finally,
     stop searching, searching madly.  
For the reasons,
    or the mad rhyme.
Now that we have the answer,  
   we want to keep it, for all time.

Now We Can't Wait -
To See Tomorrow.
We Can't Wait To Go -
Where The Stars, The Sun -  
And The Sea Will Guide Us.
We Can't Wait -
To See Tomorrow -
'Cos We Know That We'll Find
The Winds Of Change. . .
Blowing Strongly.  
Winds Of Change . . .
Whispering.

Now deep in our heart,
    we know where to start.  

We'll follow this light,
    as it fills up our heart.  
Truth to be told,
     we no longer feel old.  
As the winds of change
     gently blow.
Never before felt lonely,
     even though we were alone.
Now we feel it,
     when she's not near,
And we're no longer,
     standing on our own.
We're facing the fears,
    from all the rough years.
Finally here's the truth,
   that we know. . .
 
We Can't Wait -
To See Tomorrow.  
We Can't Wait To Go -
Where The Stars, The Sun -
And The Sea Will Guide Us.  
We Can't Wait -
To See Tomorrow -
'Cos We Know That We'll Find
The Winds Of Change. . .
Blowing Strongly.  
Winds Of Change . . .
Whispering.
whispering. . . 
just breath. . .
  whispering. . . 
don't let this end. . .

We feel the southern wind blow,
      and now we finally know.
It's the winds of change,
     whispering. . .

2017.07.19 @ 0302

Wild And Young 05

Wild And Young 05
    (a kalee song)

Somethings changing -    
   this doesn't feel the same.       
      and it's shaking our foundation.
Feel a passion -   
   question if we're sane.
      will this be our salvation.
We face each new day -
Look for tomorrow -
We feel so strong -
Pray this thrives. . .

We're Wild And We're Young -
Because We Can Dream.
Still Wild And Young -
We're Suddenly Free.
Of Lonely Sunsets -
That Force Us To Run -
Feel Wild And Young.

Roaring passion -
   feeling no guilt or shame.
      this is more than flirtation.
Moving forward -
   with no regrets, no blame.
    this feels like an addiction
So close to the edge -
And on a high wire -
We now thank the Godz -
We're alive. . .

We're Wild And We're Young -
Because We Can Still Dream.
Still Wild And Young -
We're Suddenly Free.
Of The Lonely Sunsets -
That Our Heart On The Run -
We Feel Wild And Young.

2017.07.06 @ 0410

Play With Us Tonight

    Play With Us Tonight
       ( a kalee song )

Holdin' us close -    
on a hot summer night.  
You're drippin' wet, babe -
    it feels so nice. Show us, reveal to us -
    teach us something new.  
Oh oh -  
We wanna make love to you

"We'll" fit together -
    our hand in your love.
You sweet little girl -
   we need your woman's touch.  
Our burning desire -
     is runnin' away with us.  
Baby Girl - Let it run free . . .

Play With Us Tonight -
Play Forever -
Play With Us Tonight -  
You'll Discover -  
That This Feels So Right -
Like No Other -  
Play With Us Tonight.

All our life -
   we have dreamed of this.
Our satin sheets -
    your lace and satin dress.  
Our hot desire -
    is bunnin' deep inside of us.  
Baby Girl - Set Us Free. . .
Set us free

 Play With Us Tonight -
Play Forever -  
Play With Us Tonight -  
You'll Discover -  
That This Feels So Right -
Like No Other -  
Play With Us Tonight.

Oh - OH.
Play With Us Tonight -  
Play Forever -
 Play With Us Tonight -  
You'll Discover -  
That This Feels So Right -
 Like No Other -
Play With Us Tonight.
play with us tonight  

You don't need to hurry baby  
on our satin sheets  
we'll take off your satin dress . . .
we'll be too much to handle

2017.06.29 @ 1400

A Big Nothing

        A Big Nothing

we often wonder, what we were thinking. our imagination paints it so grand. dreaming dreams that can't come true. beautiful castles, made of sand.
So here it is, our new issue. falling back to a lack of trust. when the pretty all turns so ugly. real happiness, short circuited by lust.
always felt safest, existing in shadows. the archer always sure of his mark. and now we're in a situation. that we're taking, shots in the dark.
We Look In The Mirror And We See - A Big Nothing Staring Back At Us. It Seems That Love Just Makes Us Cry - We No Long Even Question Why. We'll Just Let That Sleeping Wolf Lie. . .
we thought by now, we'd be happy on our own. but our heart feels pulls it can't resist. drags us along on a hell bent ride. believing in something, our head say's doesn't exist.
we feel so stupid, when we forget. the dark rainbow equals a dreams death. whirling and twirling, boomerang back. wishing for love, with our last breath.
but that's a wolf, that no longer howls. remembering half the moon is black. but walls built for protection. become a prison, that stops no attack.
We Look In The Mirror And We See - A Big Nothing Staring Back At Us. It Seems That Love Just Makes Us Cry - We No Long Even Question Why. We'll Just Let That Sleeping Wolf Lie. . .
the wolves that howl the loudest are the wolves that have no teeth . . .
We Look In The Mirror And We See - A Big Nothing Staring Back At Us. It Seems That Love Just Makes Us Cry - We No Long Even Question Why. We'll Just Let That Sleeping Wolf Lie. . .
2017.06.29 @ 0100

Escape Your Pain

        Escape Your Pain


Seems like we can't erase-
Past mistakes and your face-
'Cos you keep breaking and tearing-
   (we know you're after us)
Why don't you let this fade away-
Instead of fighting night and day-
We have nothing for you but scars-
   (what do you want from us)

We know-
   you made "us" go wrong
   and our love for you is gone

We Have Escaped Your Pain.
Have Finally Broke Away.
Knowing Your Love Was A Lie.
All The Games You Played.
Hell The Price We Paid.
Slowly Made Everything Die.

You're spinning a wild tale-
Designed to make us fail-
Keep on trying to pull us down-
   (you just can't let it go)
We know we're stuck in your head-
But to us you're dead-
We laugh 'cos Putain is a clown
   (so happy we let you go)

We know-
   you made "us" go wrong
   and our love for you is gone

We Have Escaped Your Pain.
Have Finally Got Away.
Knowing Your Love Was A Lie.
All The Games You Played.
Hell The Price We Paid.
Slowly Made Everything Die.

you can't escape your pain-
smoke or drink it away-
even believing your own lies.
this is the price you pay-
for the games you played-
you're why everything you touch dies

2017.06.06 @ 0330

LIfe Of Shadows

         Life Of Shadows

How much shame can you conceal.
How much pain do you need to feel.
Nobody drys the tears you've cried.
Could you feel sunshine if you tried.

Is It Our Face You See?
Do We Haunt You When You Sleep?
On Hands And Knees You Crawl
Through All Your Nightmares.
When There Is No Saving Grace
Does Your Know How To Race?
Crawling Around In Your Dark,
Life Of Shadows.

How many sins can you hide?
With all the secrets kept inside?
The everything blackening the sun.
You will pay for everything you've done.

One by one.

Is It Our Face You See?
Do We Haunt You When You Sleep?
On Hands And Knees You Crawl
Through All Your Nightmares.
When There Is No Saving Grace
Does Your Know How To Race?
Crawling Around In Your Dark,
Life Of Shadows.

2017.06.01 @ 2300

To Save Our Self (#47 - No Shades, Just Black)

      To Save Our Self
 (#47 - No Shades, Just Black)


Why did you ever push to see,
Just how much we would take?
You kept feeding us your bullshit,
"Don't worry, he's just a friend."
We finally reached the point,
From where there was no return.
Now you're so angry,
Because we're letting you burn.

step away, let us go
reap the seeds you sow
We Could Have Been -
What You Want Us To Be -
You Ignored "Us" -
To Feed Yourself.
You Will Never Have -
What's Really Inside Us -
We Moved On -
We Had To Save Our Self.

You're carving holes around us,
When we thought our ground was solid.
We try to turn the other cheek,
But our head just spins around.
It's OK for you to hate us,
Pain is just a point of view.
We've made a few mistakes,
And the biggest one was you

step away, let us go
reap the seeds you sow
We Could Have Been -
What You Want Us To Be -
You Ignored "Us" -
To Feed Yourself.
You Will Never Have -
What's Really Inside Us -
We Moved On -
We Had To Save Our Self.

carving holes and trenches
(carving around us)
you're tearing yourself apart
(tearing yourself)
it's slowly catching up to you
(catching up)
you've finally reached the point
(at the point)
you're only good for your holes.

"we" could never be what you needed
you pulled "us" under disaster is what you are
We Could Have Been -
What You Want Us To Be -
You Ignored "Us" -
To Feed Yourself.
You Will Never Have -
What's Really Inside Us -
We Moved On -
We Had To Save Our Self.

. . . and so we save our self. . .

2017.05.24 @ 0430

If His Sanity Should Fail

   If His Sanity Should Fail


here is the shell of a man.
ready to make his last stand.
mind is grey and blacks,
  one to many attacks
this is a shell of a man.

knows what he won't believe again.
the dark rainbow has won.
white wolf in the rubble,
  knows that he's in trouble.
so here is shell of a man.

Standing Alone -
Just Marking Time.
If His Sanity Should Fail.
Waiting To See -
What Will Come To Be.
If His Sanity Should Fail.
Standing Alone -
Toes On The Ledge.
If His Sanity Should Fail.
Waiting To Fall -
At The End Of It All.
If His Sanity Should Fail.

He finds everything based in lust.
Will never last, falling to dust.
What makes the heart race.
Will always be a slap in the face.

Stranger in a strange land.
Crumbling castles, built on sand.
Rising up, when someone calls his name.
Recalls how happy, turns into pain.

Standing Alone -
Just Marking Time.
If His Sanity Should Fail.
Waiting To See -
What Will Come To Be.
If His Sanity Should Fail.
Standing Alone -
Toes On The Ledge.
If His Sanity Should Fail.
Waiting To Fall -
At The End Of It All.
If His Sanity Should Fail.

All the illusions he can think of.
The greatest one was love.
Angels do come, but all angels fly.
Dreams are born, only to die.

Internal blackness, hiding the scars.
Self awareness, trapped in mental bars.
If he believed, he'd offer up a prayer.
Now at the end, he just doesn't care.

Standing Alone -
Just Marking Time.
If His Sanity Should Fail.
Waiting To See -
What Will Come To Be.
If His Sanity Should Fail.
Standing Alone -
Toes On The Ledge.
If His Sanity Should Fail.
Waiting To Fall -
At The End Of It All.
If His Sanity Should Fail.

here is the shell of a man.
ready to make his last stand.
mind is grey and blacks,
  one to many attacks
this is a shell of a man.

knows what he won't believe again.
the dark rainbow has won.
white wolf in the rubble,
  knows that he's in trouble.
so here is shell of a man.

2017.05.23 @ 0600

Make You Do (what we)

   Make You Do (what we)

We could warn you about   the things we'll do to you. The pleasure and pain   we'll subject you to. You may be traumatized   but you'll be totally aroused. As we tie your   wrist's to your feet. Your succulent fruits   displayed for us me to eat. We'll unlock the door   where your dirty dreams are housed.
We're Only Looking For Your Submission - Your Consent For Everything Thing "We" Do. But Before You Give Us All The Permission - Carefully Think It Through. . . You Have To Think It Through. You Will Tumble Just Like Alice - Feel Week And Yet Somehow Stronger - Give Us Responsibility For You - You'll Enjoy What We Make You Do.
Once on this journey   "we're" starting on. You'll cross over new   horizons with each dawn. Escape from everything   you used to be. We promise to push   farther then you think you can go. Make you crash past   everything you think you know Unleash all in you   that you think of as beastly.
Once You Surrender To Your Subconscious - You'll Have Peace Of Mind After "We" Are Through. But Before You Jump For All That We Promise - Carefully Think It Through. . . You Have To Think It Through. You Will Tumble Just Like Alice - Feel Week And Yet Somehow Stronger - Give Us Responsibility For You - You'll Enjoy What We Make You Do.
what we make you do. . .
2017.05.23-0100

Done (#46 - No Shades, Just Black)

           DONE
(#46 - No Shades, Just Black)


you've been acting like the victim,
while you've been tearing us down.
we're so tired of your shit,
and watching you slowly drown.
so buckle up princess hold on tight,
'cos your about to lose your crown
Reality will hit you hard -
Get ready for a world of hurt -
We don't believe in getting even -
But what we got is what you deserve.

Everyone Keeps Tells Us -
We Should Try And Play Nice.
But None Of Them Know You -
When They Give Us That Advice.
We're Through With You. . .
You're Standing On The Bridge -
As We Light ANd Watch It Burn.
We've Bottled Up To Much -
Now It's Time To Take What You Earn.
We're Through With You. . .

we're moving on along and beyond,
moving on and we're getting strong.
finally got around to delete and block,
sending your trash to where you belong.
we've allowed this bull shit,
to have effect for far too long
Hurt until you see stars -
Karma's gonna catch up -
Oh, we won't try and get even -
Life will give you what you deserve.

Everyone Keeps Tells Us -
We Should Try And Play Nice.
But None Of Them Know You -
When They Give Us That Advice.
We're Through With You. . .
You're Standing On The Bridge -
As We Light ANd Watch It Burn.
We've Bottled Up To Much -
Now It's Time To Take What You Earn.
We're Through With You. . .


2017.05.18 @ 1545

Just Another Lie (menstrual cycle 02) (#45 - The Shades That Fade To Black)

JUST ANOTHER LIE (menstrual cycle 02)
(#45 - The Shades That Fade To Black)


the memories of that july night, are hazy.
saw her danger with our eyes of grey.
She's a stealer of dreams, she's crazy.
and we followed her any way.

It was just another summer night,
when "we" sat there on the front lawn.
It all just felt so real and right,
and our heart waited for the dawn.

she was just a predator -
she jumped at the moment -
and all she told us was -
another lie.

we started to see and plan, for "someday".
felt alive, so young and strong.
it felt like a Nick Sparks screenplay.
we were so wrong, wrong, wrong.

It was just another winter night,
we prayed she wouldn't come back.
but she did and started a fight,
sadly not her last attack.

she jumped at the moment -
she was just a predator -
yeah -
when she said "I love you" we knew -
it was another lie -
just another lie -
another lie.

the past grows hazy -
and we're finally getting stronger -
another lie. . .
she's too crazy -
all her lies are getting longer -
another lie. . .
"i love you" -
was her greatest lie -
just another lie. . .

2017.05.17 @ 1430

Scheme On (menstrual cycle 01) (#44 - The Shades That Fade To Black)

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     Scheme On (menstrual cycle 01)
(#44 - The Shades That Fade To Black)


you do your best work on your knees -
pay your bills, by collecting fees -
but you don't see what everyone can sees.
you walked away form your own child -
every chance for love you've defiled -
none of your stories can be reconciled.

You'll Pay For Your Own Karma -
You Backpage Party For A Living.
What You Smoke Will Kill You -
Your Demons Are So Unforgiving.

we left you with out hesitating -
tired of pain and other shoe waiting -
now it's time we did some educating.
after we watched you commit sin after sin -
we wondered how we ever let you in -
now you're back to where you always have been.

You Feel The Nightmares returning -
You Have A Fever And You're Itching.
You Can Sell Yourself All Over -
But That Won't stop You Twitching.

can you remember feeling loved?
you just scheme on, scheme on. . .

blame where you are on a curse -
your tarot cards say blame the universe -
all your stories so well rehearsed.
drink until you are blind -
smoke to much to clear your mind -
stay in the hell that you designed.

You'll Pay For Your Own Karma -
You Backpage Party For A Living.
What You Smoke Will Kill You -
Your Demons Are So Unforgiving.

can you remember feeling loved?
you just scheme on, scheme on. . .


scheme on. . .

2017.05.14 @ 0200

Fragile

          Fragile


and the tears always run,
  when flesh and bone give up,
    dying in the fading evening sun.
tomorrow's pain,
  will be more of the same,
    something in our mind is aflame.
perhaps repeating,
  the same mistakes again,
    will illustrate a lifetime struggle.
true love is a violent whisper,
  a steal fist in a velvet glove,
    walking moons & shooting stars.
when we forget,
  just how fragile we are.

on and on, the pain remains.
like tears filling a scar.
on and on tear streaked stains.
they never know how fragile we are.

when dreams let go,
  our head and heart at war,
    fading echo's across the dark rainbow.
tomorrow's hope,
  is we somehow become sane,
    something in our mind says just cope.
maybe we,
  should just build a wall,
    to protect against a future fall.
struggling with such circumstances,
  as if good ever could come,
    from taking heart chances.
when we forget,
  just how fragile we are.

on and on, the pain remains.
like tears filling a scar.
on and on, tear streaked stains.
they never know how fragile we are


how fragile we are. . .


2017.05.12 @ 0515

So Blame The Moon (phoenix mix) (#43 - The Shades That Fade To Black)

  So Blame The Moon (phoenix mix)
(#43 - The Shades That Fade To Black)


We remember where we were -
   when we realized "our" love was a lie.
The harder we worked and tried -
   the more fucked up you became.
We had no idea, the final cost -
   as the golden path died before our eyes.
We found out how little you thought of us -
   all our dreams denied . . .

So If You Read These Words We Write.
Remember we Gave It Our All.
With The Ending You Engineered.
We Will Not Take The Fall.

WE CAN BLAME THE MOON.
AND THE SOUTHERN WIND.
THE DARK RAINBOW -
   WHERE THE DEAD DREAMS LIE.
THESE WILL BE THE LAST WORDS -
THAT WE WILL SET FREE -
THE LAST FEELINGS FOR YOU HAVE DIED.

If any feelings were still alive -
   you would find a way to make our heart break.
It wouldn't matter what we tried -
   you would push and pull away.
Now the memories, we have of you -
   who you pretended to be was a fake.
We know we were just another victim -
   there's nothing more to say.

Moving On, Is Now A Simple Thing.
What Came Before Is What Was Hard.
We No Longer Have Thoughts Or Cares.
And The Wounds Have All Finally Scarred

WE CAN BLAME THE MOON.
AND THE SOUTHERN WIND.
THE DARK RAINBOW -
   WHERE THE DEAD DREAMS LIE.
THESE WILL BE THE LAST WORDS -
THAT WE WILL SET FREE -
THE LAST FEELINGS FOR YOU HAVE DIED.

so as you read these words we write,
remember you truly deserve the blame.
you can change your chapter and book,
but your story will always remain the same.

SO WE BLAME THE MOON -
AND THE SOUTHERN WIND.
THE DARK RAINBOW -
AND WE BLAME YOU.
THESE WILL BE THE LAST WORDS -
THAT WE WILL SET FREE -
THE LAST FEELINGS FOR YOU HAVE DIED.

2017.05.11 @ 1500

Part one So Blame The Moon (on our feet Mix) - 2012.05.19
Part two So Blame The Moon (on in a box mix) - 2012.05.20

Cleared Our Mind

        Cleared Our Mind


We acknowldge our weaknesses,
   even those we don't want to hear.
We've asked the hard questions,
   knowing the answers we fear.
We had become so distorted,
   but on this we are clear.
Time to flip the switch,
   and embrace the man in the mirror.
Re-invent our self today.
Re-invent our world view today.

Cried Out For The Last Time.
Cleared Our Head Space -
Now Watching For The Warning Signs.
Cried Out For The Last Time.
There Will Be No Turning Back -
Now That We've Cleared Our Mind.

Even with our clarity of vision,
   we move slow And wary.
Cause we know our heart,
   is our heads adversary.
We can't help but be nervous,
   life is dark and very scary.
But we are finally letting go of,
   the internal madness we carry.
Re-invent our self today.
Re-invent our world view today.

Cried Out For The Last Time.
Cleared Our Head Space -
Now Watching For The Warning Signs.
Cried Out For The Last Time.
There Will Be No Turning Back -
Now That We've Cleared Our Mind.

There's no turning back now -
It's all we've ever wanted -
Just living in the moment -
There Will Be No Turning Back -
Now That We've Cleared Our Mind.


2017.05.08 @ 0600

Who & What (#42 - The Shades That Fade To Black)

              Who & What
(#42 - The Shades That Fade To Black)


you once were someone we could idolize
with similar dreams we could identify
we watched as you began to metamorphosize
tearing "us" apart, 'till we finally said goodbye
still can't recognize
was there any truth in all your lies
it's sad you don't realize
you're the reason everything you touch dies

Who The Hell Are You?
(Do You Even Know)
What The Fuck Are You?
(Why Is Everything Just Show)

you once were someone we could make a bride
but you destroyed "us" with each new lie
once you had a soul that has slowly died
haven't you ever stopped to think why
still can't set aside
what was truth and what was lie
it's sad you're just cyanide
you're the reason that we chose to fly

Who The Hell Are You?
(Do You Even Know)
What The Fuck Are You?
(Why Is Everything Just Show)
   you and us, "we" were once so . . .
   "we" were incredible
   you and us, "we" were once so . . .
   "we" were indivisible

you once were someone we could love
an answer to prayers and dreams
but there was to much push pull and shove
and nothing you said was what it seems
still can't think of
we were just another of your schemes
it's sad you can't see all the above
you're the reason for all your extremes.

Who The Hell Are You?
(Do You Even Know)
What The Fuck Are You?
(Why Is Everything Just Show)

who the fuck are you

2017.05.04 @ 0330